Chapter 151 BACK AND SAFE
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Standing outside my room's door, I take a few deep breaths. Tessa is sleeping inside, I don't know if she has woken up or not.
Ann had asked me to shift her back to our room so that she won't doubt anything at all. WE have to act normal with her.
Taking a deep breath, Finally I twisted the doorknob and entered my room, which is slightly dark at the moment because I had drawn the curtains before.
I enter the room and see the movements on the bed as I ask in doubt, "You're awake, Tessy."
"What happened?" She asks, her voice hoarse.
"We… We had too much drink, Tessy, and we…. We slept all night," I tell her hesitantly while taking slow steps towards the bed.
"Sleep?" She asks, inquiring.
"Uhmm… I mean… we had sex all night, Tessy," I reveal gulping nervously as her face looks shocked at my revelation.
"You're hiding something?" She asks and I feel panic as I refuse immediately with a dark face, "No, I am not…"
She narrows her eyes at me and I know I have f**ked up as calmly I started to explain to her, "I… I had asked you to stop, you were drunk and so was I. We started having light and sweet sex but soon it turned into hard and then rough… We were not in the senses and you keep begging so… I did what you asked for…"
Lies, lies, and lies.
I feel ashamed of myself for being a jerk and then a liar, but what choice do I have??
"This doesn't make any sense…" She murmurs, looking uncomfortable.
I immediately fill a glass of water and then help her in drinking it slowly. I know she is disturbed and distressed too about what happened to her and I know my lies don't sound genuine at all. She has lots of questions to ask but Ann has asked me to let her sleep.
I look at the side table where I see the sleeping pills. With that, she would be able to sleep and heal the pain in her body.
I gave her one pill and she didn't ask any further questions. After gulping it down, she begins to fall into a slumber and I sigh in relief.
Finally, my Tessy is back, alive and safe.
****
10 hours, it's been 10 hours since I gave her the pill and she hasn't moved for a single second since then and neither has she opened her eyes. Ann told me it's normal but I am feeling worried and anxious, she has to wake up and come back to me. I can't live without her.
NO !!!
"Ahh.." I heard a groan while I was pacing back and forth in my room.
"Tessy, what's wrong?" I rushed to her.
"My head.." She holds her head, groaning in pain. My heart tightened looking at her miserable state. I immediately dissolved the tablet in water that the Doctor had instructed for her pain and then fed her gently.
"Here… Drink this, it will ease the pain." She opens her mouth and gulps it quickly, she looks very much thirsty.
Oh, Tessy.
Before I am able to ask her how she is, she again dozed off.
F**king Hell.
*****
For two nights, I haven't slept properly. My mind is heavy and so is my heart, it's been more than 48 hours now and Tessa hasn't woken up. Ann says it's normal but I am losing patience.
The fear has covered my heart, the fear of losing her forever.
I reluctantly leave the bed where my beautiful Tessa is lying unconsciously. I have put on her clothes and an adult diaper for her. Miss Celine has no idea what happened to her. Ann has forbidden her to step on our floor and she didn't dare to ask why.
I walk to the bathroom, and after freshening up, I look at my haggard face in the mirror, I was different when Tessa was with me. Completely opposite to who I am now.
She brings me happiness, she brings out that careless young boy in me whenever I am with her. How could I hurt her and hate her with the intent that I attempted to kill her?
No, I don't believe it.
I don't hate her, I love her and I could never hurt her ever in my senses.
Something happened to me that night and I need to find out what it was.
Absent-mindedly, I walk out of the washroom when I see Tessa's eyes open and she is blinking rapidly, not able to hold on.
I hope this isn't any new hallucination as I rush to her and then hold her face in my hands.
It's real, she's awake.
I feel over the cloud as I start pecking her whole face regardless of her frowning face under my peck.
"What happened?" She asks the same question and my little happiness fades instantly.
"We decided to watch a movie in the theater room and we got drunk… We had some rough nights and because of exhaustion, you fell into a deep sleep," Half-truth, half lie.
"Sleep? How long have I been sleeping?" She asks, still looking disoriented from all the mess that I had created two nights before.
"More than 48 hours," I tell her, have been counting each hour Tessy for you to wake up and show me your beautiful blue eyes that never fail to mesmerize me.
"48 hours?" she looks at me, shocked.
"More…" I correct her and she goes completely dumbstruck.
I know, Tessy, this is all f**ked up things to believe but it had happened to us, unfortunately.
She leans back, looking troubled from my revelation. She doesn't remember anything clearly. I think those pills were not to make her heal but to forget everything. She tries her best to force her mind to remember something but she can't.
"A bottle… Someone breaks a bottle… Did we accidentally break a bottle that night?" She asks making me gulp in terror. Did she just recall what had happened to her? What did I do to her?
"Bottle…? What are you talking about? We didn't break anything at all…" I say hurriedly, trying my best to stay calm and not let her doubt me.
"You must be feeling hungry, let me bring the food for you." Before she would ask any further questions, I tried to change the subject and immediately picked up the phone at the side table.
"Has Miss woken up?" Miss Celine asks in concern.
"Yes, she has woken up, bring her breakfast," I inform her, and then putting down the phone, I turn to Tessa, she is awake sitting calmly in front of me. I couldn't thank God more for bringing her back to me.
I smile at my blessing, "Breakfast will arrive soon."
I sit beside her and watch her intently, "Tessy, how are you feeling?" I ask her.
"Terrible.." She replies, "I feel like my whole body got crushed by something and my scalps… It hurts too much…" She says while touching her head and frowning from the pain.
I look away from her guiltily, It was me who gave her all this pain.
"Everything will get better soon, don't worry… Just don't stress your brain ok." Except for saying a few words to comfort her, I don't have anything to say to her, perhaps I should apologize to her but when she will ask why, what am I supposed to say to her??
"How are you feeling, Miss?" Miss Celine enters with the trolley of food and with a polite smile, she asks Tessa about her health.
I was afraid that Miss Celine would blurt out something that would add to Tessa's doubts as I quickly answered her on Tessa's behalf.
"Tessa has just woken up, I don't think it would be good to stress her to talk. She is awake and fine, that is enough for us, right?" Miss Celine nods her head, and then after blessing Tessa, she leaves and I let out a sigh of relief.
"You should stick to the liquid first, and then we will eat solids," I tell Tessa as I start feeding her soup, I know she must be hungry at this moment and this liquid might not satisfy her hunger but at least it will give her strength to get better.
"These are painkillers," After finishing the bowl, I hand her the painkillers that will ease her pain.
Suddenly, Tessa held my hand and looked at my palm, she asked, "What's this?"
"Oh, nothing… I cut my hand while making a tonic for you that night." I lie, quickly.
That night I didn't know I had cut my hand nor did I feel any pain from that cut to know that I had hurt myself until at the breakfast Ann held my hand and then bandaged the small wound for me.
As I said, I had lost my senses and still, I am unable to know how it happened?
Should I confront Ann about it but it would give me nothing but pure distress and disappointment?
So, where should I go? To whom do I look?
Who could help me to get out of this mess and make sure that I am not harmful to my Tessy??
