Chapter 150 RESTLESS NIGHT
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"Ahh," every time she loses her consciousness I wake her up from my brutal bites on her skin. I want to eat her flesh and kill her.
For this, she has jumped into my bed so I will give it to her. I stand up and pull her back to me as I start hitting her back hard, "Take it bitch, Take it all... You asked for this."
I am f**king mad at her, I want revenge from her, I want revenge.
My hand hits the wine bottle and it drops shattering into many pieces. My anger shoots out when the images of Mona holding a child that is covered with blood are reflected in the glass pieces.
I pull her hair mercilessly pulling her back to me and she whines in pain, "AHH…"
"You kill my child, I'll kill you."
I whisper in her ear breathing heavily, I bend down to pick up a broken piece of the bottle with the intention to kill her when suddenly the door of the theater room opens with a loud THUD.
"Andrew... Stop." Ann stands at the door commanding me.
"Mona left me because of her and my child... I'll kill her, Ann... I'll kill her," I tell her as I look down at Tessa's lifeless body with full hatred in my eyes.
"Calm down, Andrew... Calm down." Ann says softly while taking slow steps towards me. "Drop the bottle." She commands and this time unknowingly I drop the piece from my hand.
BOOM
My mind seems to calm down and then I close my eyes taking a few deep breaths. Why did I suddenly get so angry? What is wrong with me??
"What have you done?" Ann's anxious voice brings me back to reality as I look down at the chaotic scene in front of me.
"Did I kill her?" I ask in disbelief, what have I done??
F**k, I have stopped pills so then how?? How did I lose my senses?? How??
"Pick her up and bring her outside, I'll call the doctor immediately," Ann commands, throwing my clothes to me, and only then do I realize that I am fully naked and so is Tessa.
"I....I...." I begin to explain feeling suffocated and disgusted by myself when Ann suddenly snaps at me, "She is not dead yet... but if we delay taking her to the doctor then she might get dead. So, stop weeping like a kid and bring her out. Now..."
She is alive, I wear my clothes immediately and then picking the sheet I cover her and then run outside, Ann and I rush her to the spare room on Ann's floor, and within a few minutes, the doctor arrives. Ann pushes me out of the room and then locks me in her study.
I don't object, after all, I am the harmful person here. They have to stay safe from me.
I sit on the sofa praying for Tessa to be fine, I don't know what happened to me and what I did to her.
"Please, save her God, not her, please." Joining my hands together I start praying like a small kid and keep praying until Ann opens the door and enters with a livid face.
"Ann, is she safe? Is Tessa alive??" I rush to Ann as soon as she steps in.
She looks at me for a second and then widens her eyes as though she has seen a ghost in me, "You… You're crying, Andrew." She points out as she touches my wet cheek and only then do I realize that I had been crying all this time while praying for Tessa.
I look away from her nervously. The last time I cried was for my parents and now for Tessa. That proves one thing that I have deeply fallen for her but I intended to kill her.
How could I???
"Ann, please tell me about Tessa, how is she?" I ask her desperately and after looking at me for a moment she finally reveals, "She is fine, alive but…" She pauses, "Her body is too weak and it will take a lot of time for her to heal." She completes her sentence and I look at her guiltily.
"Ann, I swear I didn't know what happened, we were watching a movie and then making love but I don't know what got into me and I keep hallucinating… Mona and blood." I begin to explain, feeling anxious.
Ann listens to me attentively and then holding my hand she guides me to the sofa to sit.
"Andrew, see, this is the reason why I don't want her to stay." She says softly and I gasp in fear, "You were trying to save her." and she nods her head, "From me??" I ask in shock and she nods her head again.
"You are not fine, Andrew. You know that since our parents died and that accident, that trauma never leaves you behind and Tessa triggers them the most. You refuse to take pills and see what you have done to her. Tell me, would she ever want to be with a man who tried to murder her??" She questions and I shrug feeling uneasy.
"As I have told you, Andrew, she has to leave at any cost, we are family, not her. You, me, and our child." She says and I look at her in horror, her tone is calm and soft but it's giving me chills down my spine.
I want Tessa in my life, I love her, but how could I possibly try to kill her?
I haven't raised my hand at anyone before so then why now? And why does it have to be Tessa???
Feeling my tension, Ann holds my hand and comforts me, "Don't stress yourself, go and get some sleep, in the morning we will talk about this." she patted my hand, dismissing me to leave but I couldn't leave not until I see Tessa from my own eyes, safe and alive.
"I want to see Tessy," I tell her and she refuses me immediately.
"No, Andrew, not now." I look at her with pleading eyes, "Please, Ann. I won't touch her, I just want to see her, please." I beg and at last, she nods her head in agreement.
"Fine, you can watch her from a distance, but only for five minutes, Andrew. Not more than a single second." She warns and I thank her with gratitude.
"Thank you so much, Ann." I stand up from the sofa before her and then rush out of the study as she follows me behind. I reach the spare room on Ann's floor and as I enter Ann's grip on my arm stops me.
"From here, you can watch only." I tilt my head and then nod at her obediently.
She stands behind me but I don't care as I watch Tessa sleeping or unconscious. I don't know, her face looks peaceful and calm, her breaths are shallow and I feel the urge to touch her skin but stop when I remember the way she was lying lifelessly on the ground.
If Ann hadn't arrived would I have killed her then??
That possibility seems to shake me from inside and out. Feeling shameful and remorseful, I finally backed away from her. I am the monster in her life, I ruin everything in her life, her wedding, her first night, her dreams, her fairytale. Everything.
I am not her prince charming but a monster, a cruel monster.
Tonight, no matter what, I couldn't sleep, I kept focusing on all the things that happened.
I was in the office, Ann came over to pick me up, she gave me a bag, she told me about Mona, I had a headache and the pills.
F**k, I stop and again try to remember, I gulp down a few pills but I had no idea what they were for. They weren't anti-depressants I am sure about it, so then for what they were??
My mind seems to go into a mess. What happened today was some doing of Ann?
No, Ann can't be that cruel, she loves me too much how could she make me a murderer, No way.
The whole night I was restless, I am in my room but Tessa isn't there. I don't have her warmth in my arms. I couldn't sleep without her warmth.
I sit in the corner like a shattered child staring at the empty room blankly, my heart aches terribly and there is no way I could feel the peace ever after committing such a huge sin.
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"What are you saying, Ann?" I exclaim in disbelief after hearing Ann's words.
"We can't tell her the truth, I still want a child from her. She can't leave not yet." Ann says with determination.
"But, Ann," I try to protest but Ann's words stop me immediately, "Will you tell her that you tried to kill her Andrew in a fit of rage?" She questions.
"I wasn't in my senses, Ann. Those pills," I try to defend myself but then Ann snaps at me furiously, "You are sick, Andrew. You can't keep her happy nor safe."
I AM NOT SICK. I want to shout aloud but somehow the words stop at the tip of my tongue.
Seeing the hurt look on my face, Ann walks over to me and then explains gently to me, "We can't tell her the truth. Not yet. You have to tell her what I just told you now. She needs a good sleep to get healed."
I nod my head in response, maybe this is the best thing now to not mention anything that happened last night.
"Here," She hands me the pill again that drains all blood out from my face but still I take that pill and swallow it in front of her.
"Go and change your clothes, we both will eat breakfast together in my room today." She says with a bright smile and I wasn't in the mood to even look at the food but for her sake, I nod my head.
Once, I am out of her room, I spit out the pill that I had hidden in my mouth.
After looking at Tessa's miserable state I have decided to not swallow any pill and soon, I will prove to Ann that I am not sick.
I Have To Prove It.
