Chapter 152 MY SAVIOR, A SURVIVOR
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"Oh, hubby, I am very sorry… It's like I have trouble you a lot these days." She says apologetically and I look at her with affection, so pure and nice.
How could anyone even think of harming such a pure soul??
"Eat the medicine, we have our whole life ahead to discuss this." I comfort her and then, keeping the trolley aside, I grab an oil bottle. I have yanked her hair quite mercilessly. I should massage her head a little bit.
Sitting beside her, I ask, "Can you lay on my lap, I will massage your head."
She moves and realizes that she is wearing a pamper, which makes her whole face flushed in embarrassment as she mumbles an apology and my chest tightens, it should be me apologizing to her, not her.
I hugged her comforting her, she shouldn't be embarrassed about what had happened. It was all my fault, not hers. In a low voice, I mumble an apology to satisfy my guilty ego.
I hope I will be able to tell her the truth one day.
Keeping her head in my lap, I start gently massaging her head. I haven't done this before as I am a bit clumsy and cautious too.
She falls asleep in my lap and later I put her on the pillow gently and then take her into my arms. At first, I felt hesitant but still getting some courage. I hug her in my arms, and as soon as her warmth touches my body I feel immense calmness and peace that I had thought I could never get in my life again.
She snuggles in my arms and I sigh in relief as I kiss her forehead, mumbling an apology.
"I am Sorry, Tessy."
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Our days started to get normal, I take care of Tessy in the best way as a good and responsible husband and I have even started going to the office. The best way to indulge Tessa's mind is to put her to work and that I did.
Daily, I would send her new designs to work on, and also in the evening, I would ask her to accompany me to the study room. These are all excuses I made because I want her to stay with me 24/7 but I can't say them aloud.
I am afraid if Ann knows about my affection and love for Tessy, there might be some harm coming again for her.
I have been throwing the pills she had been giving to me since the incident happened, thankfully.
And also, with Tessy around, I am feeling much more lively and healthy.
"Could you please check these accounts and bring me tea later?" Tessa moves and stands from the sofa, She smiles at me, "Ok" and with the same smile, I hand her the file, hoping she will stay with me for longer but then she says something crushing my hopes.
"I'll do it in my room."
No, I want her to stay with me but I have no choice but to let her go. I can't force her.
"As you like, Tessy," I say while keeping my eyes on the laptop, she shouldn't see the disappointment in them.
I spent a whole week in fear. In fear that she would remember the incident at any second and then the fear of her losing me. I have slept with her daily in my arms but I haven't touched her the way I wanted to.
What happened last time still haunts me, I am afraid that I will hurt her once I get close to her but still I want her to stay in front of me for 24 hours even if I am not allowed to touch her, just by seeing her by my side satisfies my anxiety.
She leaves the room and I sigh feeling helpless. What should I do that we both would go back to the normal loving couple and start to live a normal life? That one incident has shaken me to death and somewhere I know Tessy is also distressed because of it.
Perhaps giving some time would be best, I have also started to look for a well-trusted psychiatrist who would treat me. I want to be sure that I am healthy and safe for Tessy.
But it's difficult to do it without Ann knowing about it, hence it's taking the time longer than I had expected.
Time passes quickly and I am sure that Tessa has fallen asleep in the room. I smile as her sleeping pouty face flashes in front of my eyes and again get busy with my work until my study door opens and Tessa enters with an anxious face, "I am so sorry… I fell asleep… I didn't mean to make you wait longer…"
Placing the cup on my desk, she hands me the file looking nervous.
I take the file from her hand as I keep staring at her, she has changed into her seductive night dress and her eyes look puffy proving that she has just woken from a deep sleep, there is also little redness around her blue eyes, mesmerizing me as usual.
So, she rushed here for me, because I had asked for tea instead of sleeping peacefully in the room.
Is she really that caring??? And generous??
"Are you for real?" I blurt out, lost in my thoughts.
"Huh?" She raises her brow in questioning and I shake my head as I keep the file aside and then stretch my arm for her, "Come here."
She walks toward me and I pull her gently to sit on my lap. Her arms naturally wrap around my neck making my heart flutter from immense delights.
"Next time, if you fall asleep then no need to bother yourself with anything… You need a good rest." With a deep gaze on her, I tell her.
Her strand of hair falls and I tuck it behind gently, it feels so smooth on my finger.
"I have been resting these last days, I am fine, now," She says while I was admiring the softness of her hairs on my finger, "Hmm," I hum in response and gradually my hand starts to trace her beautiful and smooth skin, "You are very beautiful, Tessy." He says, his breathing starts to change, "and innocent too. "You are very beautiful, Tessy, and innocent too," I tell, honestly.
Holding her hand in mine, I kissed her knuckles while revealing, "I was scared to death when you didn't wake up for the whole day…" Yeah, I couldn't even explain the emotions I was feeling at that moment. I was scared to death, afraid of losing her.
"I thought… I had committed a sin… a grave sin…" I start to get emotional, if Ann hadn't arrived would Tessy be sitting here in my lap, would I be able to touch her again? To feel her warmth?
"It's all in the past, now," She says, hugging me tightly and I bury my face in the crook of her neck, breathing heavily.
Her hands shift from my neck into my hair as she starts to caress them affectionately but it arouses me and I tense. I am hesitant to take her to bed, I am afraid, what if she remembers that unfortunate night?
Holding my head, she forces me to look up at her, our eyes met, fills with need, desire, and love for each other, she leans down and pecks my lips softly, "I miss you," She says meaningfully and I feel a slight joy in my heart from her words but then the darkness again enveloped my mind as the flashes of that night's incident starts playing in repeat and I shake my head to shake away all the disturbing thoughts from my mind.
The only good thing I get from the incident is that my heart has really fallen for her, I have deeply fallen for her love. I love her, truly. It's not just her body but all of her, I love all of her.
"Tessy… I think I have fallen in love with you." I confess.
I have to, this time I won't disappoint her from my love. I will give it my all, truly and happily.
I pull her back to me, slamming my lips on her, softly yet with the full passion I start to devour her, this kiss, this feeling is different, there is no lust, no heat in me but only love and affection for her. She is not only my wife but my love, my life, my eternity.
But as I was lost in my all world of imagination, I felt her being numb to my kiss and frowning. I pull away from her, "You don't want this?"
She looks at me for a moment and then finally replies, "I do.."
She brightens my heart as naturally, my lips curl and again I capture her lips, this time she responds back making my soul dance from joy. I pick her up in my arms without breaking our kiss and then place her on the sofa.
"I thought I would never be able to get this time back with you.." I say deeply as I start showering her face with soft kisses. Her skin feels so good on my lips, I could kiss her the whole day like this and could never get bored of it.
After getting her naked, I remember the most important thing, Condoms. She still can't get pregnant not until I get to know what happened to me suddenly that day.
"Condom? Here?" Tessy asks amusingly.
Oh, Tessy, you have no idea. I had wanted to f**k you everywhere in this mansion but now it won't be just f**k, but my love and my passion for you.
"I… I had always wanted to make love with you in here…" I tell her, smirking, "Andrew.." She breathes, her eyes showing genuine love to me.
OH, Tessy.
As I walk back and position myself between her legs, I tell her in a soft command, "Hubby, you will always call me that, now. My dear Tessy." and without waiting for a response from her, I push myself inside her, F**k, I am back to my blissful time.
"You are mine, Tessy. All mine." I say as I start moving in and out of her, slowly and gently. I am loving this slow lovemaking. I want to devour and savor each second with her.
This love and intensity I have with her give me an enormous amount of peace, calmness, and satisfaction. It's the food for my unnecessary anxiety.
I am alive, I am happy, and I am lucky and fortunate to have Tessa in my life, she is my savior.
She is a Survivor.
