Chapter 135 SHE ISN'T MY CURE
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Tessa, as expected, noticed my anger and as a good wife she starts to talk to calm me but I am not in the f**king mood to talk. Why am I being depressed about what would happen to her, that should not be my concern no?
But, you are going to make her pregnant, so she is your f**king responsibility, my subconsciousness snaps and I scowl inwardly.
We reached home in silence and as she didn't have her dinner and neither had I eaten anything, I ordered pizza. This was supposed to be a happy feast night for us but nah all things turned into plain, suffocating silence.
"You can talk to me about anything, you know…" As I hug Tessa from behind, she holds my hand that is resting on her belly and then says melting my heart and making me sink further into guilt.
"Tessy, it's nothing… Go to sleep…" I sniff her scent while pulling her closer to me and then murmur softly as I kiss her soft hairs. Soon she dozed off and so am I.
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"PUT YOUR HEAD ON MY SHOULDERS
HOLD ME IN YOUR ARMS, BABY"
Mom is singing and laughing while dad is driving. He couldn't contain his delight while watching my mother who is on the ninth cloud at the moment.
I smile watching them both happy together, after so many years finally, we are going to become a family, me, Dad, Mom, and Ann.
We are going to bring my sister back. I had also prepared a note last night to play when we reached home with my sister. It's a surprise for everyone.
I bite my lips smiling excitedly thinking of how mom would react. She had asked me to play that tone when Ann would join home and I learned it in just one night and that gives me a reminder that I need some sleep.
I close my eyes watching my parents in front of me, my mother's head is placed on my father's shoulder, she is humming a song, and they both are holding hands, such a warmth I get to see.
I lean back, tired, and don't know when I fall into a deep dreamless sleep.
BANG
My whole body shakes and I am thrown to the other side of the car, "AHH.." I am rolling and my head hits something hard and it shatters.
SHATTER
I flinch from pain and try to open my eyes, I see smoke and my parents lying on the ground, they have blood, everything is quiet and a heart-wrenching pain takes over my heart as I start to feel suffocated.
"AHHH…"
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"Mom… Dad…"
A jolting sensation pushes my head up from the pillow and I look around my surroundings blankly, where is the car? Radio? Mom's voice?
I take long deep breaths and hold my head in distress, F**k, these nightmares.
I thought Tessa had cured me but no, Alas.
I turn and look at Tessa who is in a deep sleep looking peaceful and calm. I touch her face trying to see my mother's face in her, No, Andrew she isn't mom, she is Tessa.
I remind myself and then gingerly get off the bed, changing my clothes. I decided to run in the gym room instead of going to the backyard.
I put on the song that my mother was singing in my dream on the speakers that are attached to the ceiling in the gym room and then start the treadmill for my run.
I close my eyes everything coming back to my mind, that haunted scene of our car crash and then the most painful news of losing my parent, my world, I was shattered at that time when Ann saved me, if it wasn't for her I would have gone into a depression and then end up in a psychopathic ward.
I stop, panting heavily, my face covered with sweats not from my body's exhaustion but my mind's.
F**k, cursing aloud I switch off the treadmill and then walk back to my room, Tessa still sleeping peacefully, at least someone is getting their peaceful sleep.
I take a long shower and then start getting ready while watching my beautiful wife. I was rude last night, I shouldn't have behaved like this with her. What is her fault in all this f**ked up mess?
Sighing, I walk out of my room and down to the dining table, I start checking my phone, nothing from Ann that is strange. Miss Celine enters the mansion and greets me politely.
"Please wake up, Tessy after 5." I tell her.
"Ok, do you need anything else?" She asks politely.
"A cup of tea, please," I tell her and she brings me one after a while.
I thank her politely as I start sipping my tea, I look at the clock, it shows past 5 and I see Miss Celine making her way to the phone. Good, it's time to wake Tessy.
After finishing my tea, I walk towards the dining table waiting for Tessy to come over and join me, and maybe I can apologize to her about my behavior or let go? We'll see.
"Good Morning, Hubby." I was sitting in a daze when Tessa comes over and kiss my cheek.
Woah, I look up at her stunned and after a while, I greet her back happily, "Morning, Tessy." then noticing her hickeys I ask in concern, "Does this hurt?"
"No…" She replies immediately and then adds, "Actually, I would like to have them more."
"I would love to make more of them on your soft and flawless skin," I whisper and then pull her closer. She is flawless and adorable. I intend to kiss her. Maybe this is the best way to apologize to my wife, I guess.
But then I hear a DING
And there I get a mini shock as I see Ann coming out of the elevator, F**k, when did she return?
I greet Ann and Tessy follows me. "Seems like you both have finally managed to know each other." Ann notices our change of behaviour as we sit beside each other.
"Yes, thankfully… Tessa is a good girl…" I praise her genuinely.
"I know it already." Ann smiles, yeah, I can sense she is dancing with joy. I hope I could also say the same for me at the moment, last night her father's communication and then my nightmare, everything is messing my brain.
I want to be happy but I can't. I think I should go back to my anti-depressant pills before I would again get a panic attack. I left with Ann and before leaving I placed a kiss on Tessy's cheek. One thing that my father used to do but I am not my father.
I keep reminding myself.
"What's wrong?" Ann asks as soon as we step outside the mansion and stand under the sun.
"When did you come back, Ann? Why didn't you inform me?" I ask Ann, displeased.
"I wanted to give you a surprise but instead I got one." Ann's chirping, she is happy I can tell.
I gave her a tight smile and today she asks me to join her, so I did.
"If there's any problem you can share, Andrew." Ann takes my hand looking worried for me.
I look at her for a moment, should I tell her that I have met Tessa's father, also celebrated her birthday, and then took her out without your permission??
"Uhmm… Nothing, Ann… Just nightmares." I tell her as I start rubbing my painful temples.
"Oh, do you want medicine for that?" She asks, concerned.
"I don't think so… I'll see, Ann," I reply lazily and then lean back on the seat, closing my eyes. After all, I don't want to continue this topic. She feel my distress and didn't say a word further Thankfully.
I spend the whole day with Ann, we discuss work and I see Tessa's father too in the company but this day I ignore him completely. In the evening Ann asks me to join a charity function. I messaged Tessy about it beforehand as I remembered the way she got upset when I didn't inform her about my late arrival.
It was midnight when I finally returned, Tessy was sleeping peacefully when I enter the room and I head straight to the shower to clean myself, and when I walk out of the wardrobe wearing the clothes I find no one on the bed.
Panic rises in my heart as I run to the stairs and climb them down hurriedly, Has Tessa left me?
A thought that gives me shrills, but when I am storming towards the crystal room I hear the movements in the kitchen, I retreat my steps and then walk towards the kitchen and here I see my stupid wife preparing tonic for me.
F**k, not for a single second do I feel pleased by her this action.
"Tessy." I glare at her, "Why you're out of the bed and that also at midnight… Do you know I had a mini heart attack when I didn't find you in the room?"
"Oh… I am sorry… I came down just to make a tonic for you." She replies innocently looking at the stove.
"Next time, don't leave like this," I tell her as I touch her face to be sure that I am not dreaming.
She smiles at my small gesture and then turns to pour me a bowl of tonic, I sit on the stool to drink and she joins me. "You should be sleeping at this time," I tell her, concerned, already I have ruined her sleep.
"And you should too…" She replies, yawning, stubborn woman.
"Tessy, go and sleep in the room," I tell her more firmly but her response amazes me, "No, I like watching you."
She rests her head on her hands and keeps watching me as though I am a kind of Greek God sitting in front of her and she is worshipping me with her eyes. Am I that good? I think doubting myself.
Once I finish my tonic, I pick her up and take her to our bed, we sleep in each other's arms calmly forgetting about all the worries surrounding us, or is it only me?
