Chapter 51
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She walked through the house and stopped in front of the door. She wanted to go out and stayed there for some time alone. She just wanted to think about everything that happened in the past.
"Luna, please.. You shouldn't walk out at this hour" A young man came towards her and said. Mirela looked at him and nodded with a small smile on her face.
"I just want to have fresh air, I'm not going anywhere. I just want to sit there for a while. You can stay here if you don't believe" she smiled at the young boy and said as he lowered his head and clenched his jaws not knowing what to say to her.
"But Alpha asked us to protect you while he was away, he said don't even let Luna walk alone" Mirela's heart tightened and she bit her lower lip because of the pain in her heart. She just couldn't believe that he was gone and not there anymore.
The mark she had on her neck had completely faded from her skin telling her that he was not alive anymore. She clutched her nightdress tightly and walked back into the house without troubling others. Her heart was aching and she couldn't endure the pain in her heart. She helplessly covered her face and leaned against the door as she slowly sat on the floor. She was sobbing.
She must hate him for everything he had done to her but she couldn't bring herself to do it. She loves him so much and her love hasn't changed even if they spent time separately for years. He hurt her, he just hurt her by doing the things she asked him not to but she still loves him. She was not ready to let go after they got together again.
"Ascian.. Why? Just come to me. I will forgive everything you did. Please Ascian" she sobbed hard. Her shoulders were trembling, there was no sound inside of the house other than the sound of her sobbing and calling his name.
She was begging him to come to her again, she has no idea how to live without him. He was the main preservation for both her and Ahren. And now without him, she was helpless and powerless. She was just similar to a human, no wolf and no power in her and especially she's just weak. Mirela cried and cried until her eyes didn't have tears to let out. She got up from the floor and walked upstairs again. She entered the room and walked into the dressing room as she changed into a pair of denim shorts and a black hoodie. Walking out of the dressing room, she looked at Ahren. Her heart went numb seeing him.
Even if she wanted to go and find Ascian no matter how dangerous the blood forest was, she couldn't do it seeing her son. If anything happens to her too, what will happen to Ahren? He will be lonely for the rest of his life and she didn't want it.
"Ahren," she walked towards him and whispered against his ear. Then he immediately woke up and looked at her with red eyes. He was not like before, waking him was the most difficult thing for Mirela but now he had changed. He's slowly becoming like Ascian.
"Momma?" sitting up on the bed, he rubbed his eyes and looked at Mirela with a questioning gaze. Then she kissed his forehead and smiled at him while caressing his hair.
"Ahren, momma wants to go somewhere for a day. Can you stay here alone? If not I won't go anywhere" she smiled at him and said. Then he watched her face with a curious face and lowered his little eyes before talking.
"Momma wants to go and find daddy?" her heart tightened as he asked that. She really wanted it, she wanted to find him. If he was already dead, she needs to bring his body back. Her heart was not letting her to stay at peace if she couldn't see him. She wanted to give him a proper goodbye.
"Yes," she replied and smiled at Ahren. Then he looked at her and shook his head with tears in his emerald eyes. Tears rolled down from his eyes as he shook his head. Touching her face, he watched her for a while.
"Momma, you cannot go there. I will lose you too" Mirela lowered her eyes and bit her lower lip not knowing what to do. She hated it, she hated her helplessness and her weakness. Everything was because she was weak, if she was strong, nothing would happen and she could have gone there with them.
"Alright then, I'm not going let's sleep" she said as she laid on the bed with him and hugged him against her chest. Then she closed her eyes and took a deep breath as she fell asleep slowly. She fell into deep sleep, she didn't feel the movements which were happening against her body because of her sleep.
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Mirela woke up in the morning and rubbed her eyes as she got up from the bed. Suddenly, her heart shook violently as she felt something was missing. Horror filled in her as she turned and looked at the bed and frowned.
"Ahren? Where are you?" she asked as she checked everywhere inside of the room. Then she ran out of the room and entered the kitchen. No matter where she searched, she couldn't find her.
"Ahren. I'm gonna hit you when I find you! Don't play with Momma" she said as she ran out of the house. Her heart was beating fast with horror, she was both scared and lost at the same time. She didn't know where he left all of sudden and why she couldn't find him.
"Did you see Ahren?" Seeing Ascian's beta, she immediately strode towards him and asked. He looked at her with a dumbfounded face and shook his head. Mirela's heart tightened and fear was controlling her.
She didn't know where he went and how to find him. Her eyes turned red and she lowered her head as she waited for a while. She lost Ascian and she cannot lose Ahren too. She needs him. Her heart was pounding against her chest, her mind was in daze, couldn't think anything properly.
"Where is he? I can't find him" she helplessly looked at the beta and said. Looking at the expression on his face, she knew he also had no idea about where Ahren was exactly. She bit her lower lip and looked around the courtyard but she gained nothing.
How can she find him? She cannot even feel his scent and cannot even feel him because of the absence of her wolf. Her heart was in throbbing pain. Fear hovered her. She didn't know what to do or how to react because of everything that was happening around her.
Suddenly, something hit her mind as her body went numb. Did he go back? To find Ascian? No right? Her body trembled and she immediately ran into the house as she went upstairs and entered the room Ascian arranged for Ahren. She opened the wardrobe and as her heart tightened.
She never locked his wardrobe because he was not tall enough to unlock it but he could unlock it if he climbed on the chair of the dressing table. Now he had done that, she forgot and locked his wardrobe after arranging. She looked at his room for a while and sat on his bed with a smile on her face.
He was also stubborn and arrogant, just like his daddy. Was she the only one who is different when it comes to their family? No one can kidnap Ahren or do something because he was with her. Ahren had left willingly, he's just really cunning.
