Chapter 50
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"Let momma wash you baby" Mirela wiped her tears and said as she got up from the bed and walked towards the washroom carrying Ahren. Then she washed him and changed him into new clothes.
"Ahren, you hungry?" she asked him but he just shook his head and lowered his eyes. She knew that the thing which had happened and the things he saw there were a huge blow to him. He was not like before, calm and quiet. He did nothing but think.. Think about everything.
She sighed and walked out of the room as she entered the kitchen. As soon as she entered the kitchen, she covered her face with both of her palms and started to sob helplessly. He even said that he would come and marry her after everything. Memories surged into her mind and that made her heart even more hurt. She was just both hurt and sad.
"Ascian? What is this? Please come back" she mumbled as she leaned against the wall beside the refrigerator and slowly sat on the cold floor. She remembered how he marked her and how he came to the kitchen and took her into the room. With heart throbbing pain, Mirela sobbed and clutched her dress tightly.
She was angry at him and furious at him but she didn't want something like this. She just didn't want to lose him, she always loved him. She felt her heart was aching for him and also her body was getting weak. She touched the mark on her neck and took a deep breath. She still had the mark on her neck. If Ascian was not alive anymore, the mark on her neck will slowly disappear but it's still there.
Then she immediately got up from the floor and ran towards the washroom in the guest room. She entered and moved her clothes away as she looked at the mark on her neck. Mirela's whole world collapsed seeing the mark slowly disappearing from her skin.
"No no no! Ascian… please.. Don't leave me!" she cried and rubbed the mark not wanting to let it disappear from her neck. She wanted the mark, she was not ready to lose it. The mark means Ascian. He marked her before leaving and it's been a month since she has seen him.
She wanted to see him again and she just wanted to talk to him again. She loved him so much and her love is still the same even after years. Her vision blurred as tears heartlessly suppressed her eyes without even rolling down.
Taking a deep breath, she wiped her tears and lowered her head before walking out of the washroom. Then she walked out of the room and sighed, she didn't know what to do. If the outside world found that Ascian was not here anymore, they would just attack. Especially rogues.
She couldn't let that happen, she didn't want to see the things Ascian protected destroying by others. He was a great alpha for the pack and also he was a great father. She had thought about him wrongly, she thought he would hurt Ahren like he did to her. But Asican did nothing but love his son even if they only met for a few months.
She felt guilty about hiding Ahren from Ascian, she could've let him know that he was a father and he has a son. Her heart tightened with the thoughts of the past and she slowly walked out of the house as she stopped in front of Asians beta.
"Did you tell anyone?" she asked him. Then he shook his head and looked at Mirela with worried eyes. Anyone could tell that she had been crying for a long time. Her eyes were red and face was pale. Then she nodded at him with a small smile on her lips.
"Just tell that Ascian attended to another matter as soon as he got here. He will come after he finishes his urgent work."
"And do everything like it happened when Ascian was here. There shouldn't be any mistake" she said and Ascian's beta nodded at Mirela with gratitude in his eyes. She forcefully smiled at him and walked into the house again as she touched the mark on her neck. The mark was still hanging there faintly.
"I don't believe, Ascian. Just come back" she muttered as she walked upstairs. She sighed and entered the room as she saw Ahren was looking out of the huge glass window in their room. She watched him for a while and walked towards him.
"Ahren," she spoke. Then he looked up at her and smiled as he again looked out of the window after a while. Her heart tightened because of her son's sudden difference. She was hurt by all the sides. Ascian was not there and now Ahren was also changed. She was utterly helpless and hurt.
"Daddy will come back!" she said, caressing his hair. Then he immediately looked up at her with his big eyes and raised his eyebrows. Mirela smiled at him, seeing his cuteness. He was just cute and adorable.
"Momma? You sure?" hearing her words, he was happy. She nodded at him looking at his happy face, even if Ascian couldn't come back again, Ahren will understand because he's growing up and will not be a child forever but she had to make up his mind at this point.
"Yes" Betraying the fact that her heart told, she replied wanting to make Ahren happy. Then she watched the beautiful smile on his face as she said that. She didn't miss his smile. Ahren already loved Ascian so much and she couldn't understand how to face the future without Ascian.
Nothing is permanent, even if she asked his beta to lie, she knew that one day everyone will know it and she cannot hide the fact forever but at least she can make things normal until they find out about the truth,
"So you will be a good boy and wait for daddy okay?" she asked Ahren as he giggled and nodded at her. Then she smiled and picked him up as she walked towards the bed and sat on the bed placing him on her lap.
"Momma, there was a woman like you. She looked so much like you. I thought it was momma but daddy said she wasn't momma"
Mirela frowned and looked at Ahren hearing what he said. So much alike her? There was a woman? Inside of the forest? How come there can be a woman living inside of that deadly forest?
"Like me? How?" she asked him. Then Ahren looked at her and smiled, touching her face. Her heart softened because of his cute attitude.
"Daddy said she was a witch and we can see her like momma because we loved momma" Mirela smiled hearing him, did Ascian take Ahren to a witch? She thought. Then she caressed his face and smiled.
"So, you saw her like me?" she whispered, making him giggle. Then he wrapped his little arms around her neck and moved closer to her ear.
"Yes, daddy also saw her like you momma" her heart tightened hearing it. Her eyes turned watery but she forced them back and smiled at Ahren with a nod. Does he love her? Just to see her like that? She asked herself and bit her lower lip.
Everything about Ascian hurt her, she just didn't know how to get rid of the pain in her heart. She was losing him. She wanted to go to him but she didn't know how to, she didn't have the permission to walk out of the house because of everything that had happened.
Mirela stayed on the bed until Ahren fell asleep, then she got up and walked into the washroom. Suddenly her eyes fell on Ascian's hair and body gels. Her heart clenched and she lowered her head without looking at them.
"Ascian, please" she muttered again as she walked towards the sink and washed her face. She looked at her mark and it was still there. Not like before, it was just disappearing and that made her heart hurt.
