Chapter 190 TRUTH OR LIES?
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Aaron keeps crying in my arms and I have no idea how to calm him at all. These days it's difficult to handle him, he has a blocked nose and he is uneasy for many days.
"Ssshhh… Aaron…" I try to calm him down but he keeps twisting his little body in my arms wanting to get down. I know what he wants but I am also afraid that his nanny would enter his room at any moment and this mischievous boy will lead me into trouble.
But, what can I do?
I am a helpless father.
Sigh.
Finally, I manage to take out my phone and then show him the recent picture I got from Chicago of his mother. She has gotten better and his elder brother is named Cyrus.
A beautiful name for my beautiful boy.
He is way more healthier than Aaron, maybe because he has the warmth and love of his mother around him. Cyrus and Aaron both are similar to each other except for their eye color even their hair shade is a bit different.
Aaron has lighter hair while Cyrus has dark hair.
But if a person sees them at first glance they would take a second look at them because of their similarity. I guess the advantage of being twins.
As soon as Aaron sees her picture, he starts to calm down, these days he has been saying unintelligible words and after scanning his mother, he starts blabbering the word, "Ma Ma."
And I hush him down immediately, what if his nanny will hear it?
"Oh… he has calmed down." His nanny entered the room.
After a few months since we brought Aaron home, his young nannies didn't satisfy Ann as she has now hired a mature woman who takes care of Aaron beside a young woman with her named Selina. Selina does all the cleaning and restocking for him while Miss Martha is the one taking care of him all the time.
Miss Martha stays here with us, while Selina goes back to her house daily after 9 and sometimes when she gets late I drop her off personally as she is a young and beautiful woman and I don't think it's safe to send her back alone also late at night.
She has been a quiet and shy girl. We often go out together to buy all the stuff for Aaron, not that I am interested in what Aaron eats and wears a day, but because it gives me a fair idea of what Cyrus should also be using at the moment.
And after making a mental list, I would send it to Jethro's man that takes care of all the stuff for Tessa and Cyrus.
I am even sending her money monthly. I could have transferred money to her but that would make Ann suspicious as I am sending the cash to her monthly. I know she isn't able to work with the child but as usual, she has stunned me by doing two jobs while keeping my son beside her.
Her self-respect and ambitious personality could never keep her at home doing nothing.
I know she cares for Cyrus' good upbringing and she is doing her best to give him a good life even when there would be no help from me.
A moment of pride for me.
After Aaron falls asleep. I finally leave his room straight on the terrace. Tessa's memories always make my heart heavy and suffocate as I need some fresh air.
The flowerbed surrounds me with the refreshing smell of flowers, I take a deep breath inhaling all the sweet scents that lighten my heart a bit. I take out the cigarette case that I always keep with me but never smoke as it always reminds me of the time when Tessa was fighting for her life and I prayed to God that I would leave this bad habit and I did.
Thanks to Tessa.
She always wanted me to leave smoking but somehow I couldn't. I wonder if she is still persistent for me to quit smoking and how would she react when she comes to know that I have finally quit or maybe now, she doesn't care at all.
Sigh.
After pacing back and forth for a while on the terrace I go back to my room, to my lonely self and my empty soul and this night hurts me more than usual as this night marks two years of Tessa in my life.
*****
"Leen has referred to a good Pediatrician, I think we should take Aaron to him," Ann suggests at the breakfast table and I nod my head in response.
"If you could stay at home and we all could spend the time together." Ann requests softly.
"Send me the time and address. I will be there." I say in a clipped voice wiping my mouth and then storm out of the mansion. I hear Ann's deep sigh behind me but I don't care.
She has turned my heart cold by taking away the warmth of my life, my Tessy.
Aaron has turned one and in these last months, Ann and I have rarely talked to each other. Actually, she always comes to me to talk but I always find an excuse to leave her or to keep the conversation to the point of "yes" and "no" only.
****
"Hey, why such a long face? It's Valentine's Day." Lillian says to cheer up my mood and immediately bites her tongue when she realizes that she has misspoken.
I give her a dark look and she immediately apologizes embarrassedly, "I… am sorry…"
"Have you contacted the hospital?" I ask her.
I have been keeping in touch with the doctor regarding Cyril's health. Sadly, the boy has been in and out of the hospital every month and his parents' life has turned into a complete disaster.
His father is old and so is his mother, I feel pity for them.
No matter what he did to Tessa and me but he is too suffering in all this. Can't put all the blame on him alone.
"Yes, he has been discharged for now," Lillian replies with a meaningful look which means after 10 days again he is going back to the hospital.
Sigh.
If Tessa would have known about his health, I don't think she would be able to leave here.
In order to keep Cyrus, she needed to lose Cyril. It's heartbreaking.
I dismiss Lillian but my mind keeps going on that poor child. He must be missing his sister or wondering where she has gone, leaving him all alone out of a sudden.
*****
"Where are you leaving?" Ann asks as instead of heading back home with her and Aaron I decided to leave them.
"I have some work to do," I make an excuse.
"Work can wait, why don't you spend some time with us?" She asks and I frown at her question. She knows very well that I want to spend my time with Tessa and my son but still she keeps forcing me to accept my life without her.
"I am busy," I tell her coldly and walk away from her not caring about the hurt look on her face at all.
I sped up straight to Arvada, It was a long drive, and finally, I reached my destination. I don't know why but I am feeling hell nervous, why? Because I am afraid Cyril will blame me because of all of this or maybe he will start hating me and won't even want to look at me again?
But, still, I need to take this chance.
For Tessa.
Taking a deep breath, I smooth my hair with my palm and after glancing in the mirror at my hell nervous appearance I finally leave my car and walk straight towards the house, and bravely I ring the doorbell.
RING … RING …
I start to get nervous as the seconds pass and clench my sweating hand tightly feeling anxious about how I am going to face Tessa's parents.
And there the door opens wide giving me no chance to turn back.
"Hello…" I greet Tessa's father in a hoarse voice and he nods back, respectfully, "Sir Andrew."
He already knew that Tessa had gone after giving birth to twin boys. Ann had been investigating him too regarding Tessa's escape but he has no clue about Tessa's whereabouts at all.
"Have you found her?" He asks with hope glittering in his eyes and I shake my head in response.
He sighs in disappointment and then moves aside, giving me space to get in. I walk inside and look around in distress remembering my time with Tessa here.
"I am here to see Cyril," I answered before he would question the reason for my visit here.
"He's in his room." He informs and before I am able to head towards the stairs I see her mother coming down from Cyril's room and she looks completely shocked after seeing me.
"You… Why is he here…?" She turns her gaze from me to her husband looking furious.
"He is here to see Cyril." Tessa's father informs her and she sneers in response, "After destroying his sister, what he is here for, huh? Cyril would never want to see him after knowing what he had done to his sister."
"I know I have been wrong. But, at least let me see Cyril once." I request politely but her mother's face stays stern as I intentionally add, "For Tessa, please."
Finally, her face softens and she steps down from the last stair giving me space to go.
I thank her politely and then climb up the stairs to Cyril's room. With a deep breath, I entered his room.
"Sis?" He asks when he hears the door's voice and I flinch from guilt.
"It's me, Cyril," I tell him and he smiles weakly at me.
"Where is my sister?" He questions and I gulp nervously, slowly I sit beside his bed and then take out my phone. "Your sister has a baby now."
I show him the picture of Tessa and Cyrus and he smiles widely looking overwhelmed by my revelation.
"Why hasn't sister come to visit me?" He questions and I go dumbstruck for a while.
What am I supposed to tell him now?
The truth or made-up lies?
