Chapter 187 LET HER GO
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"STOP"
I turn in complete shock and find Ann standing behind Tessy.
F**k
Her face is dark and I know it's not good for Tessy at all. Her one sharp look numbs my limbs and I am not able to do anything at all, frightened by her upcoming rage.
"Ann, I want to see my son." Tessy pleas softly.
"Ann, how's my son?" She asks as Ann gets closer and then slaps her across the face.
PAA
Alas, Ann has shown her true colors to Tessy and she keeps looking at her in disbelief.
Sigh…
I tried to warn you about Ann, Tessy.
"Has she signed the divorce papers?" Ann looks at me and asks.
"Yes," I reply and her eyes glint wickedly.
"Then what the hell is she doing here? Throw her out." She commands, ignoring Tessa's pleas for her son. My heart feels wrecked for being so helpless while Ann vent her anger on Tessa. Wish I could save her but Nah… as she has mentioned before I am a coward.
Ann walks inside the NICU and after glancing at Tessa's miserable state I follow Ann behind and then hold her arm impassively.
"Just let her see her son. She is the mother after all." I say through gritted teeth.
"You're forgetting that you have made a deal with me." She pulls her arm away from my grip harshly.
"Deal… Contract… That's all you care about. Ann… Don't you have any sympathy for her?" I snap at her furiously.
"Did anyone show any sympathy towards me, Andrew?" She snaps back.
And F**k, again it's the same thing, she, repeating her past and making me accountable for all the worst that had happened to her.
Why Dad, why did you do this to her? And then leave to reciprocate it for my whole life?
All my anger subsides in an instant and with a helpless sigh, I leave the NICU.
The dream and wish of mine of keeping Tessa and the kids with me as a family could never come true, not until Ann is here.
It's never going to happen.
That realization breaks my heart quite painfully and for a moment, I feel suffocated too from the thought of sending Tessa away.
How would I be able to let her go away from me? How?
As I intend to enter Tessa's ward to have a look at her, I bump into Dr. Leen, she looks at me with seriousness and dejectedly shakes her head.
"I have told you… She needs to stay calm."
With a stern face, she states.
"I can't," I mutter in defeat.
"So, then let her go." She says with a little force and I could see she is restraining her voice.
"I can't," I mumble again selfishly.
"You have to…" Dr. Leen gets furious and then holding my arm she recklessly pulls me closer to Tessa's bed where she is lying unconscious, with her cheek still red from Ann's slap and her hand with bruises placed on her stomach.
"Look at her, when she first came to visit me she wasn't like this. Have some mercy on her and let her go. Anna will never let her stay in peace. You know this better than me. Send her back to her parent's home. That is the only solution." Dr. Leen looks emotional and I can't blame it my Tessy has always been a lovable person. Which person can't fall in love with her?
"Ok…" I breathe with difficulty. Finally making up my mind.
It is useless to keep her bound with me when all she gets is pain and sorrow in return.
For her happiness, I need to let her go.
"I will prepare her discharge papers, you contact her parents and inform them about her health." Dr. Leen advises and I nod my head in response.
"I'll leave you now. Be strong." She pats my shoulder and leaves the ward.
I look at Tessy with a heavy heart holding her bruised hand. I kiss her knuckles and start shedding helpless tears. After such a long time, I felt happy and alive with her. I don't want her grace to leave me.
I want to be normal, and live a normal life with her and my kids.
She has given me two blessings that have brightened my dark world and now letting her go means I will step back into that dark again, and that thought terrifies me to death.
I kiss her pale face and it gets wet from my cries but she doesn't budge, she's deeply asleep.
I could still hear her pleas of seeing her son. She needs her son, not me.
I sob more sadly perhaps this is how my fate is going to be, loving her but with a distance because my closeness will only bring disaster to her life.
I spent the whole night in her ward, watching her, crying, sobbing, trying to stay firm on my decision of letting her go. I was so much devastated that I didn't even realize when I fell asleep beside her while holding her hand in mine until a nurse shakes me gently and woke me up.
"Sir… Miss Swan is looking for you." She informs me.
I blink my eyes and look around with a disoriented mind. I see Tessy, she is still the same, I kiss her hand and then stand up from my place, stretching my tired limbs.
"Where is Ann?" I ask.
"NICU." The nurse replies and taking a last deep look at Tessy, I lean down and kiss her forehead with my warm lips.
"I love You," I mumble under my breath and then head for the NICU.
****
In the NICU, things are chaotic as soon as I enter.
"Aaron isn't well, Andrew." I find Ann who is pacing back and forth anxiously.
I look at her and then at both rooms of NICU because I have no idea whom she has named as Aaron?
"The little one?" I ask, raising my brow.
"He is having difficulty breathing…" She nods her head and reveals anxiously.
"Where is the doctor?" I ask.
"Inside." She looks toward his room and my eyes follow.
We both walk together and watch a doctor briefly check the little one, he keeps twisting his body in discomfort and his voice comes out barely as a whisper.
He is too weak.
I sigh, perhaps his mother could make him better but who is gonna tell this to Ann?
From the corner of my eyes, I watch Ann whose face is getting pale from anxiousness and she looks exhausted from immense worry.
The whole day we spent in stress and finally when the little one's health gets stable we finally sigh in relief. Ann doesn't even blink this whole time she was a hell of scared and worried for the child.
She truly loves them both a lot but what about my Tessy, she too loves her child a lot.
Ann stays with the little one while I pay my visit to my elder son, this time he isn't sleeping but awake. Thankfully.
I picked him up and he is so active and healthy that I sigh with sadness when I remember the little one who is trapped in tubes.
Such a little soul.
He is a month old and healthy, he keeps making weird sounds whenever I rock him in my arms. I never knew one day I would be taking care of little infants. Dr. Leen was right, spending my time with them makes me forget about all the worries of my life.
I feel calm and happy with them.
****
The next two days go the same in stress because of the little one and because of his health. Thankfully, Ann has forgotten about Tessa temporarily.
I visit Tessa at night, and she murmurs her son's name in sleep continuously and my heart aches for her.
I have called her mother because she is the only person I would like to talk to at the moment about Tessa's health but unfortunately what news she gives me makes me more worried as Cyril's health is also not well and Tessa's parents are currently staying in the hospital just like Ann so there is no way I am sending her back.
She needs care and happiness, but all she will get is grief and loneliness.
So I have dropped the idea of sending her back to her parent's home and I doubt if she really wants to face her father after what he had done to her.
*****
The next day, Ann looked horrible from lack of sleep and after convincing her like a thousand times I was finally successful in sending her back to her room to sleep peacefully.
I look at my little son and take a deep sigh.
I hope what I have in my mind won't harm him badly and then I take out my phone as I call Jethro.
He picks up quickly, he has been waiting for this call, "Are we good to go?" He asks.
"Yes," I tell him and then end the call.
That's it, Tonight I am going to let Tessa go from my life forever and give her happiness back.
I just hope it won't harm my little one and also not wake Ann soon.
Help me, Lord.
