Chapter 185 HIS RESEMBLANCE
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"You're... You're.... awake..." I stutter in complete disbelief still feeling like I am hallucinating. Subconsciously, I stretch my hand to stroke her cheek but she turns it away from me and it completely breaks my heart to realize that she hates me.
She feels disgusted by my touch.
I stand up and press the button to indicate to Dr. Leen that she is awake, finally.
Dr. Leen enters the ward after a while with a young nurse behind her, who always takes care of Tessy beside me.
They both give me a polite nod and then approach Tessa, who is silently lying on the bed.
After checking her briefly, Dr. Leen gestures for me to follow. I obediently follow her behind, "What happened to her?" I ask anxiously.
"She has a temporary loss of voice, but I am not worried about it actually." She begins and I try to brace myself because somehow I have an idea of what she would say next.
"She keeps looking at her belly as though she wants to ask about the child. She has just gained consciousness, Andrew. We can't make her unhappy now, I am afraid… I am afraid that if this time she slips into the coma she won't be able to return to life."
BOOM
I feel a pang of sadness in my heart, I know what she wants and I know that I am not capable of giving it to her at all.
"I will try to do something," I murmur and then again enter the ward. The nurse was injecting something in her drip and I could see the way Tessa was looking around, her eyes searching for her sons, I guess.
Before the nurse left, she handed me a bowl indicating that I should feed her some water. She knows very well how much I loved to do Tessa's chores.
I pull her head side up so that she can sit properly when I feed her. She looks at me and our eyes meet but her eyes give me nothing, no warmth, no affection, they are empty and red.
Holding my breath, I walk toward her and then raise the spoon near her mouth to drink the water but she silently refuses me as she doesn't open her mouth at all.
Her eyes go down to her belly and it starts getting watery, I know what she wants to know.
"The child is safe," I inform and she immediately opens her eyes, the tears in her eyes start to pierce my soul slowly and for a moment I feel the urge to hug her in my arms to tell her that I am deeply sorry for making her go through all this.
I wanted to tell her that I tried to fight, and I did but nothing makes me win and now I lose her completely.
Her tears were like a dam, it kept falling uncontrollably and soon she fell into a deep sleep as the drugs kicked into her system.
Sigh
I keep the bowl aside and then touch her hair. My heartache begins again terribly when I wipe the tears that were hanging in the corner of her eyes.
I will soon take you out from this misery Tessy, I am trying and I will keep trying until I give you your happiness.
I silently made a promise and then with a heavy heart left her ward. I know as she is awake now she won't probably want to see my face at all.
I called Lillian quickly, taking the information on how the work was going that I had asked her to do.
She needs two more days and I give her, what choice do I have left?
I don't think Tessa is in any condition to move her hand at all, I guess a week will take for her to finally be able to move her limbs.
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WU … WU … WU …
When I entered the NICU I heard my son crying. I walk to the elder one but I find him asleep peacefully, so that would be the little one. I walk towards his ward and find him crying loudly. I frown when I am not able to notice any nurse beside him.
Why is he alone?
I was supposed to look for the nurse when I noticed the little boy's eyes.
He has opened his eyes, finally.
I gasp in disbelief when I notice his eyes that are exactly the same as his mother's. Just now, I have seen his mother's eyes and now him.
Both have selected the same day to surprise me.
Excitingly I walk inside to make sure I am not hallucinating, he is twisting his small body and crying more loudly. I look at him anxiously and then very gently I start to caress the small area between his brows.
Dr. Leen has told me that it soothes the child's temper.
He stops crying but still he looks uneasy. I don't understand what to do with him and when again he starts to open his mouth wide in order to cry, I pick him up in my arms.
Frightenedly, I hold him closer to my chest. He is too small and I have never held such a tiny creature, for a moment I feel proud of myself for holding such a little creature with too much care.
There is a small blanket on the bed that I wrap around him and then start rocking him in my arms, slowly, He still seems uneasy and I am now getting hell nervous, I keep looking at the door and there is no sign of the nurse at all and I have no idea what this little man want?
"Do you know I just told your mother about you?"
Except for talking nothing comes to my mind to calm him, he looks at me with his small blue eyes and a smile appears on my lips when I notice that he has stopped twisting his body and intently watching me.
"Am I handsome?" I ask him, and he blinks his eyes at me.
I chuckle, "You know your mother always praises me, I wonder if I am really that attractive or if it's just her love for me that she doesn't see a single flaw in me."
He moves his hand keeping it near his mouth and I watch him happily.
My heart which was pierced with sadness seems to fill with happiness and calmness as I watch him while rocking him slowly in my arms.
"You're just like your mother, do you know that?" I tell him and then very gently I stroke his cheek with my finger. God, he is so delicate.
His skin is too soft and the red color before starts to vanish from his cheeks as he has calmed down now.
I was engrossed with my small Tessy's looking son when the nurse entered and interrupted us.
"Oh, My apologies, it's his feeding time." She says apologetically and I look at her with narrowed eyes.
"Aren't you supposed to stay here for 24 hours? How dare you leave my son alone like this?"
The woman's pupils expand and then she quickly explains, "Sir, we have two nurses on duty, the last one has just finished her shift now I was discussing his routine with her. I am sorry, next time this won't happen again."
"There won't be the next time," I growl and she shrinks from my wrath.
I look down at my son and he is still watching me intently, See buddy this is how you scare people. I kiss his forehead and his little smile brightens my mood. I wonder how Tessy will react to his resemblance to her.
I hand him back to the nurse as she needs to feed him.
I feel overwhelmed and while leaving NICU I glance towards my other son's ward and that little man is still sleeping carelessly. I sigh, maybe the next day I will talk to him too but I don't know if he would be much understanding as his brother or the opposite of him.
I wonder how they both would look together in the arms of my Tessy.
