Chapter 145 PATIENCE
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"Don't worry, Andrew. I have handled everything." Lillian re-assured me for like fourth time and it's not her fault actually. I am tense and anxious and she could see that, but the thing is, I am not tense because of our shipments but because of Tessa.
I know something happened to her, she doesn't look happy or warm to me, she looks odd and cold. I know I have messed up and I hope she didn't mess up anything at her appointment.
I look down at my watch it's past lunchtime and I am sure Tessa would be back home at this time. Should I call Ann and ask how'd the appointment go? Or should I wait?
I don't know if I sound desperate to her? What if she starts doubting my feelings for Tessa? Would she send her away or keep her until she gives us a child??
My mind is in a complete mess and there I see a plume of steam coming out from a mug that is just placed on my desk. I look up from the cup to see Lillian standing with a warm smile on her face.
"Drink some coffee, you will feel better." She says, concerned, and giving her a satisfied nod, I dismiss her for now.
I pick up the mug and stare at the coffee as it reminds me of Tessa, she is a true lover of coffee, every day she starts her morning with the coffee, and that also with a strong one, not a regular cup at all.
I feel amused by her taste and then with a smile on my face, I start sipping my coffee slowly devouring each sip with the memory of my sweet wife.
In the evening, I return to the mansion and ask Tessa anxiously about her appointment, "How did the appointment go? I hope you won't reveal to her about the protection we are using."
"I didn't tell her anything but she talks with Ann briefly and I don't know what it is about, Ann didn't say anything to me," Tessa replies which make me anxious and calmer too.
"Well, she hasn't said anything to me, either. I wonder if they find anything strange in you…" I joke, hoping to lighten her mood but no, she just simply ignores me. Sigh, I took a shower, and then we both had dinner together but she remained silent all the time.
At night, when I hug her and pull her to me, she makes a small protesting sound and then pulls herself away from me, groaning. I let her go. I know I shouldn't force her at this moment.
***
The next day, I woke up early and then stare at my beautiful wife sleeping beside me, I stand up and walk to the washroom gingerly as I change my clothes and then head to the backyard for running.
What should I tell Ann about not taking pills? Should I tell her what I did to Tessa or I shouldn't mention her name, what if it upsets Ann? I have no idea what reason I should give to refuse the pills??
After my run, Miss Celine comes over to me asking me to go to Ann's room. Ok, that's it, this is the second pill she is going to give me, Come on, Andrew. You have to refuse her !!!
"Morning, Ann," I greet her and she looks happy and calm. "Morning, Andrew. How are you feeling now?"
"Fine, Ann," I tell her and then sit on the sofa beside her chair. She has a book in her hand that she closes and then looks at me, "Everything is completely fine with Tessa. Perhaps, we should change her diet and then wait for another month to get good news." Ann tells me and except nodding my head I have nothing to say in response.
She is brimming with joy and satisfaction and then taking a deep breath, I finally speak out about what had been going on in my mind since yesterday.
"Ann, I don't want to continue taking pills. I think I am better off without them."
Woosh… Finally, I have released a huge burden from my chest.
Ann looks at me and then blinks in disbelief, it takes her a whole moment to understand the meaning of my words, and finally when she does, her brows furrow in disagreement.
"Why?" Just one word from her mouth and my heart feels chills, F**k, what should I tell??
"I am better now, Ann. I don't want them." I tell her as calmly as I could.
"Before you never refuse to take your pills. You know that gives you peace." She mentions and I would have agreed to it if Tessa hasn't changed my life in a good way.
"Before, I didn't have Tessa, Ann," I say without thinking and immediately regret it when Ann's face starts to turn dark.
"Oh, so it's about Tessa, now." Ann says in sarcasm and I shrug feeling uneasy, "Ann, it isn't like this." I begin to explain but she raises her hand to stop me from speaking further.
"Andrew you are forgetting she is not here to stay, she is here for a purpose and as soon as we get what we want, she has to leave," Ann says firmly to me.
I don't want her to leave and neither is it what I want. It was never we but only her desire for a child, it was never me.
"She is my wife Ann, and I don't want her to leave." I skip the last part as I mumble it under my breath because Ann's face is turning ashen.
"The 15-day course is necessary and you can't refuse it," Ann says with a stern face. That's her decision and I can't argue further on it. "Fine, Ann." I stretch my hand and she hands me the pill, I gulp it down bitterly.
F**k, I don't want this.
Getting up in defeat, I walk back to my room. I look at Tessa, she is asleep as usual comatose. I head for a shower and then while getting ready, Tessa wakes up. She is still cold and indifferent and I try my best to keep a fair distance between us. I am afraid that pills will again do something to me.
She doesn't seem to notice my distant behavior with her and our day starts to go plainly. I would greet her, ask her about her day, and bid her goodbye but her response is short and collected.
I can't blame her after all it was me because of why she has become like this.
Daily, after my run, I am taking my pills and try my best to control the heat I am getting from them.
***
Today, when I returned from my run, Tessa was already awake and in the shower. I hear the water running and close my eyes imagining her naked under the faucet showering cold water on her, her ni**les getting hard from the coldness as I bite them making her flinch.
F**k
I open my eyes, breathless, I can't let my heat take over my mind this time. I could storm inside the washroom or I could just retreat myself and wait for her patiently to come out so that I could get my shower next.
Sighing, I walk back and sit on the bed, taking my phone. I start to focus on anything that would distract me from Tessa and here I hear the door unlocking and then she enters the room. The pleasant smell of soap fills the room and inhaling it I feel so f**king aroused that I clutch the phone tightly in my hand so that it would stop itching for her touch.
I hear a low thud, she has dropped her bathrobe I notice from the corner of my eyes, F**k, I start getting impatient, she is deliberately taking more time to wear her clothes than usual and I tried hard to not look at her gorgeous body because I know one look at her would make me go weak in my knees and then something terrible and forceful might happen that I don't want to do with her, not in my full consciousness.
Feeling the unbearable heat, I get up and storm towards the washroom.
BOOM
Once I am inside the washroom, I breathe a sigh of relief, this woman is going to be my death.
Oh Lord, give me some patience, please.
