Chapter 137 IT ISN'T LOVE
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After my breaths calm down, I pull myself away from Tessa while she stays the same at her place and I take a moment to admire her exposed skin on my piano...
Thinking of evilness, I spank her in fun and she jumps which made me laugh out loud, "Just checking if you're still alive."
I smooth my clothes hurriedly while Tessa keeps glaring at me, sighing, I bend down pick her dress and help her to wear it, "Next time, I'll make sure I have plenty of time to make you sore for a whole week." I tease and she gulps frightened of me.
Very Well.
"I hope you learn the lesson of your little seduction, Tessy." I bite her lips happily. "I am going to leave with your traces, I hope you'll keep mine on you." than giving her a kiss in a hurry I bend down, picking up my coat and then keeping it carelessly on my shoulder I walk out of the music room. I need to reach the office on time or Lillian would kill me today for sure.
I wear the coat on my way to the car and smooth my hair that I think I have messed up in the music room. Ron is standing at the door and watching me approaching, he hurriedly opens the door of the car for me respectfully.
Walking towards the car, I feel a strong gaze on me and as I turn my eyes get locked with Tessa and unknowingly I start to grin and then wave my hand at her like I am a teenage boy, she waves back and that brightens my mood further.
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"Not here, here." Lillian corrected me for the fourth time and now I am feeling embarrassed because we are sitting with a group of people with those we are going to expand our jewel business and this is the fourth time I am not able to find the clause number on which we are negotiating..
F**k, my mind is fully distracted because of Tessa, this woman is going to make me nuts.
"Thanks, Lillian," I tell her with a clenched jaw trying to be as polite as I could and she gives me a blank look.
F**k, Lillian… Buzz off.
Ok, here we go again arguing, discussing the clauses I don't get agree with. After a whole hour finally, we are done with the negotiations.
Alas !!
"Where are you lost?" Lillian ask in a scolding tone when we both were heading back to my office.
"Nowhere." I shrug but she didn't look convinced at all.
I reach my office take out my phone and text Tessa, I am eager to talk to her.
"Can't get any work done, my mind is on you." I put back my phone and then switch on my laptop. My phone blinked and I pick it up immediately, Tessa replied, "Mine too.."
"Really ???" I ask with multiple question marks, excited.
"Mostly cursing you." I look at her reply dumbfounded and then send an angry face in return and then a low chuckle escapes my mouth as I remember her tired and exhausted figure on the piano table. Hah, I never knew that piano could be so helpful and there Miss Lillian enters my office making me scowl in displeasure.
"Lillian, I am not providing you the bonus for this year," I tell her strictly and she looks at me dumbstruck.
"What?" After a while, she get her voice, yeah, she couldn't believe I could do that, right?
"You are becoming mannerless and carefree day by day so to remind you all the manners I have to cut your bonus, Lillian," I tell her coldly and she looks at me for a second, and then her brows furrowed.
"What have I done, now?" She questions.
"Stepping in my office without knocking, don't forget I am the Boss," I tell her and she rolls her eyes at me, See. That is what she needs to learn.
"I have knocked on the door not once, not twice, but thrice, but you seemed so lost in your phone you didn't notice…" She points out and then walks over with an open file in her hand, "And you have missed a spot to sign, so I am here to get your signature, Mr. Mehra's secretary is waiting outside to get the documents from me."
She place the file at my desk neatly and then taking out the pen she points to the empty space where I needed to sign.
F**k...
Embarrassedly, I take the pen from her hand and then sign it.
"Here."
"Thank you very much." She says sarcastically and then left.
BOOM
The whole day was a headache and as my mind was distracted it takes me more time to finish my work on time. Tiredly, I walk out of the office and feel stunned when I find Lillian outside sitting at her desk still working.
"Lillian, why haven't you left yet?" I ask as I approach her desk.
"You haven't left yet, so how could I leave?" She raises her brow, keeping her reason for staying.
"Hah…" I take a deep sigh as I sit on her desk, "Lillian, I apologized for my behavior. Today… I was a bit distracted…" I confess and she smiles in response.
"I could see that. After all, a man in love is always distracted without his lover," She states and I frown.
"Oh… No… No… No… This isn't what you are thinking…" I begin to clarify but she starts to shake her head in disapproval. "Come on, Andrew. I could see the glow on your face, your eyes are filled with joy and you look more energetic today than ever…" She starts pointing out and then adds, "With a distracting mind, of course."
"Lillian, you are thinking too much. Tessa is my wife so it's normal for me to think about her. That doesn't mean that I am in love with her." I tell her clearly and she still looks at me unconvinced.
"She has been your wife for months but only today did I see you mentioning her as your wife and also the way you were engrossed in your phone, I bet it was her." She continues giving valid points to prove her point of view and I roll my eyes, displeased.
"Lillian, this isn't love, try me." I tell her with a wink and now it's her time to roll her eyes, "We'll see about it." She says confidently and I ask curiously, "How?"
"How…" She takes a long deep breath thinking and then to irritate me she starts tapping her chin. Annoyingly, I stand up from her desk, this discussion is closed.
"When your heart craves for her not your body, and when you feel wetness in your eyes when you see her hurt, and when just a thought of her disappearing from your life gives you countless restless nights and a feeling that nearly suffocates you to the death."
I stop, her words are quite intense.
"Lillian, you're high you know that," I tell her teasingly and she groans in disappointment. We both left the office together and I didn't even realize that I hadn't informed Tessa about it and neither did she ask why I got late??
I reach home, it's utterly quiet indicating that Ann is in her room and Tessa would be in ours. I enter the room and announce my arrival, " I am home."
Tessa smiles as she greets me, "Welcome home, Hubby." Her smile is lovely.
"Andrew… My magazine.." I lean on her with the intention to kiss her. I missed her taste in my mouth but her magazine drops and she scolds me, seriously?? What's more important than me, huh?
"What are you reading that makes your husband less important huh?" I ask as I pick the magazine and start reading the article in it. My happy mood sulks instantly. It was an article for conceiving a child, why is she so in a rush?
Does she have any idea what will happen after she gives birth to my child I am not in the sense to let her go yet, I have just started my good time with her.
No… F**king No…
"So, you are planning to conceive a child without discussing it with me…?" I question her.
"Oh, no… No… Ann gave it to me this afternoon." She replies, Oh Great, so Ann is getting impatient as usual.
"Tessy, we'll have babies but not now, and if you are trying to seduce me so that I would put a baby inside you then it's not going to happen at all," I tell her, anger boiling inside me as I throw away the magazine on the bed and then go straight to the washroom while slamming the door hard.
BOOM
F**k… F**k… F**k…
I keep cursing myself all the time under the shower, how could I be so stupid to get manipulated by her little seduction… I thought… I thought… Well forget about it, it was all a well-planned strategy of Ann to send her to my bed.
She has done many bizarre things in these couple of months and now I am doubting if I am the one who needs the medication or Ann? Or perhaps I should talk to her to not wash Tessa's brain unnecessarily, she is innocent and a fool. She easily gets manipulated by all the things said by Ann.
She has to change that, she has to trust me, not Ann. But how??
"Andrew, it was just an article," Tessa explains as soon as I step out of the washroom in my towel.
"Tessy, I do want kids… but not now…" I tell her dismissively I don't want any more arguments on this topic.
"I know, I am not forcing you for this…." She says but I am f**king mad at her, "So then why did you seduce me in the morning…. Just for this…" I snap with disgust.
I was so happy and pleased by her little act for me, and knowing that I am her first in everything I feel content and proud but she… she spoils everything.
"Andrew, that's a completely different topic…" She answers looking offended.
"How…?" I wrap my arms over my chest, questioning.
"You had been away… so… I… I just missed you…and then… you left me midway." She speaks with hesitation and her words don't make any sense to me, "Midway? When?" I ask, puzzled.
"When I was sleeping you seduced me first so I just wanted to take my revenge." She blurted out and I look at her shocked. What??
"You were awake…?" The shock in my voice was visible.
She starts shaking her head violently, she looks embarrassed. "I was asleep but after you…. I woke up later…" She explains quickly.
The anger in my heart subsides but the little annoyance remains as I say, sarcastically. "So, it's been a few days since our marriage and you even have started to take revenge on me, Tessy. Well done."
"We were talking about the kids, not this." She changes the topic cleverly.
"And as a father of a kid I am allowed to ask his mother about anything," I tell her cleverly.
"Andrew, I don't see where this is going," Oh, she looks frustrated now.
"Ok, then let me make it clear to you." I take a step closer, "You do love me, right?" She nods instantly, making me happy as I circled her waist with my arms pulling her closer to me.
"Will you then promise something?" She nods her head after thinking for a while.
"From now on, we will use the protection and you won't discuss this matter with Ann… I don't want her to know about this… The decision of planning a family must be made by us, not her, right?" I tell her. This is the best I can think about, we need to use protection and delay this process for a while and later I will talk to Ann about Tessa. Maybe she will accept her with my child.
I should give this some time to be sure if it's really love or not?
