Chapter 120 AN EMOTIONAL AND BROKEN TESSA
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"I have never imagined that one day my husband would rape me like this," Tessa says bitterly and I see her flinching in pain.
"I… I wasn't in my senses… I am deeply sorry… I will do anything to make up for this, tell me what you want… What will it take for you to forgive me?" I ask in desperation and she smiles bitterly at me.
"You treat me as a stranger in your complete senses, and now you are asking for forgiveness like you are making a deal with your client. I am your wife, Andrew. Even if you accept it or not I am your wife. A wife who didn't force any right on you since day one of our marriage. A wife who never questions your cold and estranged behavior, a wife who always wait for you to come back to her, and this is what I get as my reward, Andrew. This… A pathetic state where I got raped by my dear husband…"
She says emotionally and I could see that she is on verge of breaking down as I try to comfort her.
"I know I was wrong… Please… don't cry, Tessy…"
She starts sobbing in grief and I stretch my hand to wipe her tears but before I could touch her she slaps my hand away angrily. "I am sorry…" I apologize except this I don't think I could think of saying anything to her.
I keep seated beside her until she cries her heart out and then starts hiccuping, I offer her a glass of water, and taking it she gulps it down, and then keeping the glass back into my hand, she turns her face away from me and lay down on the bed.
I wait for her to say something to me, a scolding, or any more questions? But she didn't and the time keeps stretching between us. In silence, I hear her stomach growl, and then leave her room to bring some food for her.
After all, this is lunchtime, she must be eating something now.
But, she needs to get clean also.
I walk over to Miss Celine and ask her to prepare some light food for Tessa because of her bruised face I don't think she would be able to chew hard food, Miss Celine nods obediently and informs me that she has prepared soup and steamed buns for her.
I ask her to help Tessa first to clean herself and then follow her behind quietly back to Tessa's room.
As we enter, Tessa struggles to sit up and I immediately walk over to help her, she glares at me, and very coldly she retreats her arm from my grip.
"Miss Celine, I am hungry." She announces looking at Miss Celine and Miss Celine looks at me, meaningfully.
"You should take a shower first, no?" I advise her but she didn't spare me a single glance.
"Miss Celine, please help me to get to the bathroom." She stretches her arm for Miss Celine to take and I frown walking would only add to her pain, as I bend down and then pick her up in my arms.
I enter the bathroom and then place her on the seat while she flinches from my touch, "What's wrong?" I ask, anxiously.
She bites her lips, her toes curling, I bend down to check if I have accidentally hurt her legs but what I saw shocked me, the bruises on her legs were so bad that I stare at them in disbelief for a while and then murmur in a low voice, "I… I did that last night…"
"Miss Celine…" Tessa yells suddenly and Miss Celine appears like a wind, "Miss?"
"Help me.." She winces and Miss Celine steps forward as she speaks, "Sir Andrew, please wait outside let me help Miss to clean up."
I look at Tessa for a moment but she never meets my gaze, sighing in disappointment I finally leave the washroom.
BOOM
I enter the bedroom and see the messy bedsheet I start to change it quickly while finding a few blood stains on it. I shake my head in regret all the time.
And then Tessa walks out in a bathrobe as I help her to sit, she frowns as I touch her and then pushes me away, I don't show any reaction to her actions. After all, she has the right to get angry with me, I have just forced myself on her or saying bluntly I have raped her brutally.
Miss Celine walks out of her wardrobe with a pair of pajamas and she looks at Miss Celine meaningfully while she gives me a look that says "Leave."
Taking the hint, I respectfully leave her room giving her some privacy.
I walk down and start to set the trolley with food, I know she must be hungry at this moment and Miss Celine seems to be busy helping her.
I pass her a small smile as I hold the bowl of soup for her, she takes it with a poker face and then starts drinking it. I could see her brows twitching from time to time from the pain whenever she moves her mouth.
I watch her intently and then gesture for Miss Celine to bring her painkillers, she takes them obediently and then again lay down on the bed.
Miss Celine leaves the room with the dishes while I walk over and sit beside her on the bed, she moves away and I shake my head helplessly.
"What are you doing?" She asks, angrily.
"Nothing…" I reply truthfully.
"Please leave my room." She says and I frown, I don't want to leave her alone in this state, it was me who did it so I should be responsible for taking care of her, besides if I will leave her I would be feeling worried about her all the time.
"You said that husband and wife stay in one room." I remind her, of her own words. At this moment, I could use our relationship, no?
"You are not…" She begins to disagree and I interrupt her, "I am still your legal husband."
She pause and I feel like she has surrendered but no her afterward shocked me to the core, "So let's get a divorce then. There is no point in keeping a marriage with a man who has someone else in his heart."
I go dumbstruck and it takes me a moment to get my voice back, "How would you know if there is someone in my heart?"
"I can tell," She replies.
"No, you can't." I disagree.
"No matter what, I don't want to keep this marriage, Kindly talk with Ann and finish this baseless marriage." She says with determination.
"I won't talk to Ann regarding this topic, if you want to end this marriage, go ahead and talk to Ann," I give her a white flag and she sighs in frustration.
"I don't understand why now?"
"Why not now? At least give me a chance. Let me put everything into their right place." I tell her reasonably, that whatever I did wrong in the past I will try my best to make it right.
She turns her face away, tired of arguing I guess and I look at her back. F**k, the woman I had been thinking to keep in my life forever has gone now and the woman I had thought of going away from me stays in my bed.
What a change of life events.
I was lost in a daze when Tessa moves looking restless, "Can't sleep?"
"Leave me alone." She says unhappily and I refuse her immediately.
"There is no point in doing this now," She snaps at me.
"I know… But.. Just let me try.." Yeah, Tessa please let me try, I am willing to try or maybe just try to make up for the damage that I had caused you.
"Fine, If you're not leaving then I will," She stands up angrily and then let out a painful cry as she staggers, "Ahhh…"
I hold her up and place her back on the bed, displeased by her stupid actions, "You should stop acting stupidly…"
"And who's telling me that.." She scoffed and again I start sinking in my guilt.
"Tessy, I had explained to you why all that happened and I am still here with you that means I am guilty about that… Why can't you see?"
"It's only a half-day, Andrew that you had spent with me and you look tired of me already. I didn't ask you to do anything for me, I am asking you to leave me alone." She shouts back, since she has woken up I am seeing a different Tessa, an emotional and broken Tessa.
She is not the Tessa she was supposed to be, sweet and obedient.
Everything changed on that one unfateful night.
"Would you forgive me If I leave you alone?" I ask and she looks at me with deep emotions in her eyes, I could see her struggling in making a decision.
"I can think about it, now please leave me alone."
BOOM
Her words shock me, I did not expect her to ask me to leave her alone, I thought she would be wanting to vent out her anger on me but no, instead she is asking for a distance from me.
"How long?" I ask.
"I don't know." She replies in a plain voice.
She leans back and I see no hope for us at all, no hope of making things better between us as I stand up and leave her room quietly.
I walk down hoping to swim for some time, my mind seems to be disoriented from all the heavy emotions I am feeling at the moment.
"Sir Andrew, please eat something, You haven't eaten anything since the morning." Miss Celine sets the table for me and politely invites me to have my food, I don't have any appetite but still, I take a few bites to keep her heart.
She is the oldest and most loyal servant of the mansion.
After swimming, I decide to lock myself in my room but I keep checking on Tessa's door, hoping to hear any voice but nothing came.
I don't think her health is good and the marks on her skin, it haunts me.
At night, I go to Ann and ask her to take Tessa for a checkup, and thankfully she didn't refuse my request this time. I won't stay at peace until the doctor will check her and conclude that she is fine.
I hope I have not done anything horrible to her that night that would damage her internally.
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The next day, Ann takes her to the doctor and I am all alone, I step into her room and keep thinking about her words, In her wardrobe, I find our wedding picture, she wants a divorce and I know Ann won't let her go so easily so let's do something that would force her to stay here for a little longer.
Thinking of this, I pick the pictures and then looking for a suitable place, I decided to hang them over the bed.
It looks beautiful and then with satisfaction, I leave her room hurriedly just to bump into her.
OH NO
"Tessy… are you hurt?" I ask with worry.
She ignores my words completely and I look at her in disappointment, it isn't her fault I deserve this cold treatment from her, I step aside letting her enter the room, and once she gets inside and notices the pictures she stops at an abrupt.
"I hope you don't mind those…" I give her a charming smile. I hope she won't get pissed at my doing.
I want her to keep remembering this day and for the sake of our marriage, she would stay calm until she gets better.
