Chapter 118 MY LOVE, MY MONA
1862words
I pick the note with a trembling hand while my heart starts to sink, I hope this is not what it seems so.
"ANDY,
PLEASE FORGIVE ME,
BUT I CAN'T GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT,
I AM LEAVING, FOREVER.
MONA."
F**k, my whole world seems to shatter in a blink as I keep reading that note, again and again, it was indeed Mona's writing. That means she had left me and what about my child?
I thought and then my eyes find another paper that I pick up and widen my eyes in utter shock, she had aborted the child, but when? And why?
I seem to boil in rage as I start to break all the handy things I find in the living room and then sit tiredly on the floor, I should cry on her betrayal but I am not crying, in fact, I am feeling anger lots of anger boiling inside me.
I have to find her, she can't leave me like this…
She can't.
****
"What the hell? I want to know her details now." I roar at my friend over the phone, he is a master in computer and he will help me in finding the location of Mona but sadly he isn't able to trace her at all.
Her phone was right here under her bed, and he is the one who tells me the location of it. Except for her phone, I have nothing more information to provide him.
I end the call and then throw the phone on the sofa, I look haggard, I haven't changed my clothes since last night. Ann, Lillian, Ron everyone keeps calling me but I don't answer any of their calls.
F**k, I feel like I am in a mess.
Tiredly I throw away my coat and unbutton my shirt as I look around the messy house, and take a deep sad sigh when I remember my good time with Mona. I enter the wardrobe and there is not a single thing that would remind me of her.
The whole apartment is clean from her existence.
I didn't know when I sleep or when I eat or what's the time and day? I know nothing as I lock myself in her apartment still desperately trying to find any clue about her.
****
"Andrew…"
"Andrew…"
I feel a slight shake on my arm, the voice is familiar, I blink my eyes and look into the green eyes, Ann?
Oh… F**k, Ann.
I sit up as I realize this is really Ann.
"Andrew, why haven't you returned home?" Ann questions and I look at her in shock.
"How did you know?" I ask, puzzled.
This apartment, how did Ann know about this apartment?
"I tracked your car and then asked the guard about the apartment number." She explains calmly, and I raise my brow suspiciously as she adds, "The guard hands me the spare key that Mona has left."
BOOM
Her revelation hit the wound in my heart and I flinch from the pain.
"She left me," I tell her bitterly and she sighs softly.
"I had told you she wasn't a good choice," Ann tells me and I frown.
"I love her," I argue.
"But she didn't." She says back and I groan from heartache.
Ann looks at the mess around me and then at me, "What have you done to yourself? You are stinking. You need a bath." She tries to pick me up but I hold her like a small child as I start to mutter sadly in her arms.
"Ann, why did she leave me? I try my best to keep her happy so then why, Ann? Why? She killed my child, how could she?" I look up at Ann and Ann's brow furrows in displeasure and finally, I realize what I have blurted out.
"Andrew…" Ann calls my name in a scolding but I interrupt her, "I don't love Tessa, Ann. I am not going to touch her, I only love Mona. You already know this, Ann. You knew it." I blame her and she shrugs uncomfortably under my blaming gaze on her.
"Let's go to the mansion, Andrew. You have been staying here for the last three days, please come back home." Instead of venting her anger on me, Ann requests politely and nodding my head I return to the mansion.
When we leave the apartment I realize that it's midnight.
Ann has come over to take at this hour, it surprises me a little.
When we return home, Ann sends me to my room, I walk steadily to my room and then take a shower, while Ann has gone to prepare food for me, I think.
After the bath, Ann points at the seat for me to sit, ok, this is going to be serious, now.
"Andrew, I sincerely want you to think about Tessa as your wife now." Ann begins and I frown displeased.
"No, Ann… I don't want her as my wife, please. I can't play with her feelings, I am done with women, I don't want any more trouble, please Ann." I try to protest.
"Andrew for how long you are going to be like this, huh? Perhaps you can use her to mend your broken heart now." Ann advises and I frown deeply.
"It's a No, Ann," I tell her firmly and the door knocks.
KNOCK… KNOCK…
Ann walks over and takes the dinner tray from Miss Celine while I start to look for the note that was written by Mona to me like a crazy person.
Where the hell did it go?
Finally, I spot it and as I pick it up, Ann snatches it from my hand. "You are not keeping it." She says angrily and then tears it into pieces in front of my eyes while I open my mouth in disbelief.
"No…"
"You need to eat something and get your shit together," Ann says with a clenched jaw, I can tell she is pissed on me now but I don't care at this moment.
"I don't want to eat." I snap and she looks at me for a moment, "Andrew, at least have a glass of milk, please dear. For my sake." In a blink, Ann completely changes and requests me politely.
Surrendering, I take the glass from her hand and then gulp it down.
"Here," I hand her back the glass and she passes me a smile.
"Andrew, for how long you have known Mona?" She asks while looking calmly at me.
"Two years Ann, actually more," I tell her.
"And you have treated her with love and respect all this time?" She asks and I nod my head in response, "Yes."
"And still she abandoned you, killed your child." Ann states and I flinch from the immense pain in my heart and suddenly I start feeling furious.
"You shouldn't let her leave so easily." Ann says and I look at her angrily, "I am trying to find her." I clench my fist and tell her.
"What if I told you that I have already found her," Ann says and I look at her dumbfounded.
"What?"
"Yes, I can show you her room. She is sleeping peacefully." Ann informs me and the word "Peace" trigger my anger more.
"Peace… she is in peace?" I spat in disdain.
"Go and hurt her, just the way she had hurt you, Go and take your revenge on her." Ann holds my arm and then pulls me towards a room.
"Here, she is." She opens the door slowly and then pushes me inside.
I look at the figure in the dark Sleeping on the bed and my eyes start to turn dark and cold, I hate Mona for leaving me like this, I am here in hell while she is sleeping in peace. No, I will definitely punish her.
I close the door and lock it in case she tries to run. I walk toward her and my mind starts to get dizzy, F**k.
Staggering, I reach the bed and pull away the duvet angrily from which she had covered herself, giving me the coldness in my heart and she is here sleeping in warmth.
Huh, such a cruel person.
I lean on her and then start kissing her face, she is so beautiful, the dim light around her face making her more attractive and for a moment I forget about my revenge.
I kiss her hard taking away her breath, she tastes so good in my mouth and then suddenly I remember her betrayal as I pull away from her, and then leaning down I bite her lip hard.
"Ahhh…"
"Why?" I ask her in a hoarse voice.
"Let the past stay in the past, we can't change it right. I made a mistake, let's forget about it." She replies under me while touching my cheek. I melt under her touch and lean down until I am touching her forehead with mine.
"We can't change it…" I sigh, "But… we can reciprocate it."
And then I hold her neck in the crushing grip, I am so angry, and it feels so good to see her suffer to put her in the same state in which she had left me.
"Why… Mona… Why…"
I tighten my grip on her neck and she starts struggling under me, "Andrew… You're hurting me.."
"Yes, I will hurt you until you feel my pain," I say through gritted teeth and then start pulling down her nightdress, I will definitely show her the consequences of killing my child.
"Andrew… Stop… Stop…" She starts to writhe, petrified and it adds to the intensity of satisfaction I am getting from her suffering.
I tore her clothes and then angrily I push myself inside her, my intention was only to hurt her, to make her feel the pain. She killed my child How dare she? I won't let her bear anyone's child in the future.
She doesn't deserve to be a mother.
"Ahh…" She cries out in pain and I cover her mouth swallowing all her sobs that are feeding my inner animal while I thrust forcefully into her not showing any mercy at all.
"Stop… please… Stop…"
She keeps begging, her cries sound so pleasant in my ears while I torture her for the whole night.
It takes me longer to finish my assault on her than I had expected, maybe my member is furious too. I tiredly lay beside her, feeling her presence beside me gives me immense happiness as I start to kiss her and this time it was not for pain but to calm her.
I kiss all over her body, savoring my precious time with her, she truly is here with me, my Mona has returned to me.
I didn't know when I lose consciousness and when Mona falls asleep under me, but all I know is that Mona is back with me and this time I won't let her leave me at all.
My heart which is restless and broken before feels at ease as now I hold her in my arms feeling her warmth.
My love, My Mona.
