Chapter 38 HIS CONFESSION
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I hear a loud voice and then something rips open my heart, feeling immense pain, I wake up, panting heavily.
"You're awake…" I hear a voice full of concern and turn in the direction, my bruised face hurts a little, and again I widen my eyes as I see my cruel husband sitting beside me.
"I know you're angry, scared, and hurt by me but please let me explain first." He holds my wrist as I shake my head showing my denial and then try to get up.
"Tessy, stop, please…" He pins me down on the bed and pleads with a firm voice but his eyes seem genuinely concerned.
I stop moving because it hurts every inch of my body, "So, will you listen to me?" He asks and I nod my head in agreement.
He retreats and sits beside me, keeping some pillows at my back, he helps me to sit properly.
"Did… Did I do this?" He asks pointing at my face and I shake my head immediately, "I fell." I tell him and he sighs in relief.
"I don't know how to explain this… But last night…" He pauses and looks at me nervously, gulping he begins again, "Last night, I wasn't in my senses. I didn't know what I was doing.."
He says with a deep sigh and then looks at me for any response.
"Who is Mona?" I ask in a calm voice, keeping my hands in my lap. This name is bothering me a lot since I woke up, I need to know why did he call me Mona last night and why did he want to hurt her? What had she done that has made him broken and he turns into a complete monster.
His brows twitch at the mention of "Mona" and my instincts tell me to stop him from saying anything because deep inside I have already got the answer to who Mona is.
"She… She was my girlfriend, We were together for two years, I always wanted to marry her but Ann… She forced me to marry you, she needs an heir and Mona doesn't want any kids now but.." He pause looking at me hesitantly, "She got pregnant and I thought that now Ann would accept her, and then after divorcing you, I could marry her but no. Unlucky me, that date night was a celebration of my unborn child too but when I reached her apartment, I didn't find her, but an abortion letter with her handwritten note in which she breaks off all the ties with me and left me alone and broken…"
He sighs sadly, he looks sad last night too and broken also. But he is affected too much by her absence in his life, which means he should have loved her too much. I start to feel uneasy after hearing about Mona's real identity and her place in his life.
So, I was just a pawn in his life, he was playing with my feelings, Is marriage a joke to him?
"Why did you punish me then?" I ask in a hoarse voice while trying to control my emotions.
"I didn't… I was drunk... I lost my senses and I deeply regret it. I am sorry, please forgive me." he asks for forgiveness but I feel so angry at him that I literally sneer in response and look away from him.
Really, he can do whatever he wants in this marriage, he can ignore me, treat me coldly, avoid me, and even make another woman pregnant, he is allowed to do everything and in the last saying the five words "SORRY" would justify his actions.
Huh, No. I am not ready to accept this yet.
"I have never imagined that one day my husband would rape me like this," I say with a heavy heart and flinch as his brutal assault flashes come into my mind.
"I… I wasn't in my senses… I am deeply sorry… I will do anything to make up for this, tell me what you want… What will it take for you to forgive me?" He asks, he looks desperate and I smile bitterly, "You treat me as a stranger in your complete senses, and now you are asking for forgiveness like you are making a deal with your client. I am your wife, Andrew. Even if you accept it or not I am your wife. A wife who didn't force any right on you since day one of our marriage. A wife who never questions your cold and estranged behavior, a wife who always wait for you to come back to her, and this is what I get as my reward, Andrew. This… A pathetic state where I got raped by my dear husband…" I shout as the turmoil of emotions hit my heart making me overwhelm all of the sudden.
"I know I was wrong… Please… don't cry, Tessy…" He looks lost and seeing me sobbing he stretches his hand to calm me down but I angrily hit his hand away from me.
"I am sorry…" He apologizes in a low voice and keeps seated beside me until I cry my heart out, after a while, he offers me a glass of water and as I start to hiccup, I take the glass from his hand and then gulp it down.
I turn away from him angrily and again lay down on the bed, after crying my heart out now I feel better. Andrew stays behind me waiting for me to say something but I didn't utter a single word.
The silence between us keeps stretching until my stomach growl loudly making me flush with embarrassment. I hear footsteps fading that means Andrew is gone and then finally I turn and laying straight I look at the ceiling blankly with a difficult heart, Andrew has just confessed his love for another woman to me and that woman had betrayed him, she even killed her child.
How heartless she would be to do that?
I frown but the pain in my heart deepens as now I realize that my husband's indifferent behavior toward me wasn't because this marriage was forced on him in fact he was distant because he was in love with Mona and didn't want to give her any reason to doubt on him.
Huh… He thinks too much for her and what about me? Who is legally his wife, didn't I get any right to get his attention and care?
Oh, Tessa… You wanted a fairytale wedding with your Prince Charming but this wedding was never a fairytale and neither Andrew was closer to any Prince Charming.
Sighing in depression, I try to not think about Andrew and his love, Mona.
Just then, the door opens and Miss Celine enters, I sigh in relief as I try to sit up but what surprises me is Andrew walking behind her and as he sees me struggling he immediately comes to help me.
I glare at him and retreat my arm from his grip, "Miss Celine, I am hungry." I look at Miss Celine and she looks at Andrew.
"You should take a shower first, no?" He advises looking down at me but my gaze stays fixed on Miss Celine.
"Miss Celine, please help me to get to the bathroom." I stretch my arm to Miss Celine for help, but instead, Andrew steps forward and picks me up in his arms, my nightdress hangs disorientedly on my body and as his hand goes under my thighs, touching my bare skin I flinch from pain.
He didn't notice it as he enters the bathroom and then put me down on the seat. I flinch again when he removes his hand and this time he notices it. "What's wrong?" He asks anxiously and I bite my lips to bear the pain, my toes curling, and noticing my discomfort he bends down and as he looks at my skin he frowns and his eyes widen in shock…
"I… I did that last night…" he says barely in a whisper to himself and I refuse to say anything to him.
"Miss Celine…" gathering my all strength I shout at the top of my lungs.
Miss Celine runs inside the washroom because of my shout, "Miss…? She asks anxiously as soon as she steps inside.
"Help me.." I tell her wincing from the pain, and realizing my miserable state she immediately steps forward, "Sir Andrew, please wait outside let me help Miss to clean up." She says maturely, Andrew looks at me for a second, and then sighing, he leaves the bathroom.
BOOM
As soon as the door closed, Miss Celine looks at me with a sympathetic look and as usual, starts to defend Andrew, "Miss, Sir Andrew is not a bad person he just gets used…" I raise my hand to stop her midway.
"Miss Celine, it would be better if from now on you never speak about Andrew in front of me at all," I say sternly and Miss Celine swallows back her words immediately.
I stand up and Miss Celine helps me to sit in the tub, she fills it with warm water and then puts some essential oils she lets me soak my body inside. I feel calm with warm water, it soothes the bruises on my body and the burning sensation in my V also starts to get less.
After a few minutes, Miss Celine walks inside and then helps me to clean my body. I see the shock in her eyes as she notices my bruises, I give her a snorting look, would you still defend your Andrew Sir?
Putting on my bathrobe I walk out and immediately Andrew holds me as he helps me to sit on the bed, I frown and push him away from me. What does he want now?
Why act as if he cares for me? Or is he just pretending in front of Miss Celine?
Miss Celine brings me a light pajama set, Thankfully at this bitter occasion she doesn't take out a proper outfit for me, I look at Miss Celine meaningfully and she then looks at Andrew.
Taking the hint, Andrew walks out of the room and I wear my clothes in peace but my body hurts a lot. I don't know what had he drunk that made him so stronger, I doubt if he had ever f**ked his girlfriend with that much strength.
Never, he would never hurt her because he loved her deeply unlike me whom he never spare a single glance.
Should I still get bind with him in this marriage even when he had confessed his love for another woman in front of me?
