Chapter 180
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I'm in love with a guy who grew up in a trailer home near the beach, my parents thinks that he's after my money but I know him and he is too full of his pride to take anything from me. "I got you something" we sit with our legs criss-cross across from each other on his tiny futon
"David I told you not to buy me any gifts" Ian and I go to the same private school, my parents have no problem paying for me but his dad wants the best for him so he works his ass off to make sure Ian stays in that school
"I wanted to do this one nice thing for you please let me" he won't accept the watch I got him. It's a 500 dollar watch I know but I think it's so him but all he sees is the money
"I can't, you know I can't" he pushes my hand holding the gift away "I love you for it but you knew I wouldn't take it"
I place the gift down between us and lean forward towards him grabbing his face with my hands, our foreheads touch as we look in each other's eyes "I hate that you can't see beyond this, why do you hate that I'm rich?" It makes him uncomfortable being at my house so I hang out with him in his trailer where he lives with his dad
I sit back down in front of him "I don't hate it David I just told you that money isn't who I am"
"But it's not money Ian, it's a gift. A gift I bought because I know you'd love it, if you'd bother to even open it"
"Why is this always our problem? I told you when we started dating I didn't want anything but your love"
"And you have my love all of it, but that doesn't have to mean that I can't buy you lunch does it? Or if I'm out and I see a shirt I know you'd like I can't get it for you?"
"Is there a shirt in that box?" he points to the box between us
"No the box is too small but it could've been a shirt" he picks up the black velvet box examining it "I'm not trying to buy you or anything Ian"
He looks up at me still holding the box "I've been this my whole life" he gestures around his small bedroom "no one's ever bought me anything just because, nothing this expensive at least"
I laugh "you don't even know what's in the box"
"Something worth more than me" he looks away. I hate when he says things like that it breaks my heart
"Ian please don't say that" I take the box away throwing it to the floor "nothing can be worth more than you not even what's in the box"
He smiles faintly "I kind of want it now"
"No! You don't open it if you don't want to. And plus it's probably broken" He laughs "you threw it kind of hard"
I laugh along "I did , didn't I?"
"Come here" he pulls me to him and we lay down with his arms around me "I can't help that this is who I am, I don't think there's anything you could give me that I'll want more than just you David.
You're all I want" he kisses my cheek causing me to smile
"I know that but I can't help it when I see something I'm going to want it for you, is that so wrong?"
He cuddles me not saying anything "talk to me Ian"
"I can't give you the things that I want to give you David" he admits causing me to get out of his embrace sitting up and looking down at him as he lays there
"That's what this is all about? You think I'll expect anything back?"
"No! I just know I can't spontaneously buy you gifts like you always seem to do for me"
I sigh "and I don't want you to Ian, I don't expect anything I know you can't give me" he has a big heart and that's all I want but he thinks that he's worthless and that just hurts me "I have the means and you don't, it's ok to admit it Ian. It doesn't make me love you any less"
"And what happens after high school, when we're out in the real world I want to provide for you" "We'll get jobs and it'll just be the two of us"
"You? A job?" He scoffs "is that even possible?" He laughs
I tap his shoulder "don't laugh I can get a job if I wanted" no I couldn't, I've never worked a day in my life. "We're going to be just fine"
"And how do you know this?"
I lay back down in his arms facing him this time "because you're strong and you work hard for what you want, and plus I'm psychic" I joke
making him smiles "I like when you smile" it makes me smile
"You make me smile" we move towards each other kissing each other. He caresses my body as we intensely kiss. Ian is such a passionate lover, it's like he puts his everything making sure he does the right things. He always does the right things
His hands wonder some more "we can't" I try and pull away but he pulls me back "your dad is right there he'll know"
"He's outside doing something, we're fine" I cave and continue to kiss him. I get on top of him straddling him as he lays there tugging on my shirt. With me on top we kiss each other never letting go, he takes my shirt off and I do his kissing along side his neck I reach down to his pants and I unbutton them.
We're fully naked now and Ian lays behind me ready to take me, he always goes so slow because he's afraid of hurting me "you won't hurt me I promise" I lock our fingers kissing his hand as he slowly slide his member into me, I shut my eyes and my mouth falls open but I quickly cover it not wanting to make a sound. Ian kisses the back of my neck and my back as he slowly starts to move in and out. His light kisses feels so good against my body.
Ian thinks that he doesn't deserve me but I know I don't deserve him, someone like him who can be so passionate about the things that he wants and so gentle because he's afraid of hurting the one he
loves. I love him more than I could ever love anyone, and even though he hates it I want to take care of him forever.
