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I wandered back and forth in front of the police station.Just as I was about to attract attention,I fled in a hurry.
Yes,I didn't have the courage.I didn't dare to tell anyone about this.I didn't dare to gamble with my life.
I was ashamed to tell my father about this.What if,what if he was like my mother?I didn't dare to think about whether my mother had told my father.
If she had,wouldn't my father even come to see me?
If he had been a little more patient like when I was a child and asked me a few more times if I had been wronged,I would have told him that there were bad people bullying me.
The cold water washed away all the filth on my body,and it also announced the end of my short youth.
My mother started to send me money on time.I didn't need to ask for it anymore.I was a bit relieved.Perhaps she still cared about me.
Two months later,I often felt anorexic and nauseous.
In the hospital,I tore up the B-ultrasound report.
I didn't dare to face the reality—I didn't know that I needed to take medicine after that incident.
When I stood in front of the man again,I didn't expect that he actually remembered me.
The blurred and terrifying memories swelled up like a floating corpse.
He called me a bitch and asked me if I was done and if I was coming to ask for money again.
Again?I didn't understand.
The man thought I was pretending to be stupid.
He was so angry that he threw a handful of cash at my face.It stung my eyes a bit.
He said I was so unruly.Many front desk girls and prostitutes were eager to climb into his bed.He would happily give them famous bags and watches if he was in a good mood.But I was blackmailing him just because I had a bit of good looks.
It turned out that my dear mother had already asked him for 100,000 dollars last time.
The man took out a photo and the transfer record.
It was a group photo of the three of us sisters when I just got home,but the two people on the side were cropped out.
No wonder,no wonder she persuaded me to let it go.
No wonder she had been so straightforward in giving me my living expenses recently...
What was true despair?Before fainting after learning the truth,I gave myself a hard slap in the face.
My crazy actions and the shrill and suppressed sobs obviously scared the man in front of me.
"Like mother,like daughter.That 100,000 dollars bought my innocence.Now I want 200,000 dollars to buy your child,"I said.
The man didn't believe that the child in my belly was his.
He just didn't take protective measures that one time out of caprice.
I had one side of my face swollen and the other side pale,yet there was a smile on my lips and a cold glint in my eyes.
I told him that if he didn't believe it,I would give birth to the child and let him see.
The man hesitated for a moment and then transferred 200,000 dollars to me.
When I was about to leave after getting the money,the man suddenly apologized to me.
He was a bit drunk that night.His friend said there was a"big gift"prepared in the room.He naturally guessed what it was,but he didn't know that I was forced.
When he woke up the next day,I was already gone.
He had wanted to find me and ask for clarification,but then he received a call from my mother.
My mother directly accused him of raping me.After questioning his unscrupulous friend,he learned that what my mother said was true.
Then he asked my mother for a photo of me.After confirming it,he transferred 100,000 dollars to my mother's account to pay off the trouble.
Finally,he said that if I ever encountered any difficulties in the future,as long as I called him,he would keep his promise to help me.
I didn't look back.
100,000 dollars bought off the family affection and the last bit of my compassion,and 200,000 dollars bought off my poor and down-and-out future.
I sold my virginity and dignity for 300,000 dollars.It wasn't a loss.
So what if I graduated from a prestigious university?I was so inferior and sensitive that when I first entered society,I was like a ball that could be kneaded and flattened by others.
The 200,000 dollars the man gave me helped me get to where I am today at a crucial moment.
