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I always believed that Ava's parents had caused the brake failure, hoping my parents would die. As a result,my attitude toward Ava was always strange.I liked her,but I felt that I shouldn't.
In university,I confessed my love to her.Ava was truly kind.She didn't reject me but instead hugged me immediately.
The faint scent on her body was very pleasant.It was like the feeling of snowfall, enveloping me.I felt very happy.I swore that I would definitely marry her.
"Your girlfriend is getting really close to her senior,"several gossiping friends whispered.
"Shut up,"I said with a gloomy expression, and I began to grow suspicious of Ava in my heart.How could she do this?I was her boyfriend.
That afternoon,when I went to find her,I happened to see her taking a photo with her senior.I felt annoyed and wondered why?
That day,I scolded Ava for the first time.It was while we were taking a walk.
"You always walk so slowly and make me wait,"
I complained."Sorry,I'll change it,"she said, lowering her head.
Ava never lost her temper with me.No matter how excessive I was.Gradually,I began to make losing my temper a habit.
Because I knew that Ava would forgive me.No matter what I did.Her personality was like that.She often reflected on her own problems.
In fact,Ava had already done very well.But I thought it wasn't enough.I wanted her to only have eyes for me and not look to others at all.Only I loved her.
Later,I realized that this was a form of psychological manipulation, often referred to as PUA (Pick - Up Artist) tactics. But at that time,I just wanted Ava to belong to me.
"You look so ugly in this outfit."
"It's not nice.The collar is too low."
"Why are you so annoying?"
With my continuous negation and blame,Ava's mood grew increasingly worse.She wasn't as happy as before.
Why wasn't she happy?Seeing her looking dejected,I became even angrier.This essentially became a vicious cycle.
I would negate her,she would become unhappy,I would grow even angrier,and then I would negate her again.
Ava stopped smiling.At that time,I met Lily. She bore a resemblance of five or six points to Ava, or more precisely, to the lively Ava.
I thought that since Ava was looking for her senior,then I would look for Lily too.
Lily was always spoiled and arrogant,constantly asking me to choose between her and Ava. “Don't play dumb,” I told her.
But I didn't expect that I would date Lily for so long.I only used her as a means to make Ava jealous.
Until Lily told me that she had a terminal illness.I wanted to make it up to her.
Anyway,she only had a few months left to live.After taking care of her,I had planned to start a happy life with Ava.I comforted myself in this way.
Until the day of our fourth anniversary with Lily.Lily logged into my account to sent a message to Ava, claiming she wanted to give her a surprise.
When Ava saw me and Lily,her face was filled with sadness, as if she had let go of something.
But at that time,I thought that since Lily had a terminal illness,she needed more compensation.Ava broke up with me.Was it because of her senior?
Furious, I tore up the photo right in front of her. Ava was angry.When I saw her leaving,I suddenly felt very panicked.
I had a feeling that if she left this time,she'd never come back.But I was just being angry.I liked her the most.I didn't like Lily.
Lily became increasingly unreasonable.She asked me to marry her and erase all traces of Ava.I decided to break up with Lily.
After Ava left,I suddenly realized what loneliness was.When I was drunk,no one came to pick me up.
When I was tired,no one massaged my head for me.And no one brought me a cup of hot milk when I was working.
"Ava took such good care of you,"a friend remarked.I didn't believe it before,but now,I believed it.Ava really took care of me so well.
Being taken care of by her had become my habit.It was only after she left that I realized how much I depended on her.
The roses I bought for Ava were all thrown away by her.When I went to find her,she didn't want to see me either.
That day,I was driven out by the security guard in a dejected state.Lily called me."You went to find Ava again?What's so good about her!"
I was really exhausted.Lily was wrong.She actually tried to replace Ava.Why did I like Lily before?Then,an even bigger piece of news stunned me.
