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A month later,the divorce cooling-off period between Jack and me ended,and we officially got our divorce certificate.I stared at the divorce certificate in my hand,feeling a bit dazed.
As I walked out of the civil affairs bureau,the sunlight was gentle and not blinding,and the street vendors by the roadside seemed so amiable and kind.
Jack opened the car door and asked me,[Do you want me to give you a ride?]
I glanced at the pink fluffy doll in the passenger seat,which didn't match my style at all,and shook my head,saying no.
I drove my own car to Amy's law firm and waited for her to get off work.Then we went to a bar together.
The alcohol,mixed with the deafening music,aroused the hidden madness in my heart.
Amy,sipping her drink,asked me how it felt to be divorced.I thought about it carefully and said one word:relieved.
[Amy,you know what?I don't have to worry about Jack's health anymore.][I don't have to pack his luggage for his business trips.][And I don't have to get dead drunk at business dinners just for a project that might not even succeed.]
As I spoke,I leaned against the backrest of the sofa,covering my eyes and shedding tears.
During the two years I was a full-time housewife,I revolved around him all day long and had lost myself.
Amy leaned over and hugged me,saying,[What are you going to do next?]
I dried my tears,thought about it seriously,and then leaned close to Amy and shouted loudly,[I'm going on a trip.]
I want to make up for the years I missed and not waste a single moment of time.Jack still married Grace.I had known before that Jack was attracted to her.
But he was afraid to admit it.A mother with a strong personality could only raise a child with a gentle and indecisive character.Jack was exactly that kind of person.
When they sent me the wedding invitation,I was on my journey.
My mother called me and said,[Jack is going to marry that mistress.Do you know about it?][I know,but it has nothing to do with me.]
My heart was very calm now,a kind of calmness that came from letting go of everything.As a woman,the most important thing is to have a sense of self.
I once lost myself in my marriage with Jack,but fortunately,I've found myself again.In fact,during my trip,Jack called me intermittently,but I never answered any of his calls.
After hanging up the phone with my mother,I sent Jack a text message.[I wish you happiness.]I've let go of myself,and for the rest of my life,I should live for myself.
