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He said that I only had him.This sentence had so many meanings,but I understood the original intention.He was sympathizing with me.Heh.
He felt sorry for her for drinking too much and being sad.But when I was in Toronto and my depression was at its worst,I needed to take medicine.I talked in my sleep at night and shouted,disturbing the whole family.
I took out my phone and wanted to tell him about my pain so much.But I was afraid that he would worry,that he would be sad,and even more afraid that I would disrupt his work.
I finally moved out of the house and received treatment from a psychiatrist.I made the furniture into a square space for myself to stay in and then got into it to sleep,wrapping myself tightly in the quilt.
When he had a video call with me,he asked me why I had done this.I said I was very cold.
We were thousands of miles apart,but they could see each other every day.
Christopher probably still doesn't know that he has fallen in love with Dora.
But he still firmly chose me.However,the remaining affection was just sympathy.When did our love become his sympathy?
I'm an orphan.Is he afraid that I won't be able to live on my own?Then he still doesn't know that I tried to commit suicide in Toronto.
In the first month after we broke up,without receiving any call or message from him,I couldn't accept it and chose to commit suicide.My psychiatrist made a phone call for a follow-up visit that day.After making twenty calls and getting no answer,he called the police.
If I told him now that I had severe depression and that I had tried to commit suicide after we broke up,would he choose to marry me immediately?Would he never leave me?
I stood up and fled outside in a hurry,with unsteady steps.When going down the steps,I accidentally stumbled and fell forward heavily.
A pair of leather shoes stopped in front of me.Someone grabbed my arm and helped me up,"Are you okay?"
I looked up and saw a strange face.I quickly got up while calming myself down and shook my head,"I'm fine.Thank you."
The man in front of me looked surprised,pointed at my face,and stammered,"What happened to you?Don't be afraid.Do you need me to call the police for you?"
I shook my head again,"I'm really okay.Thank you."
He helplessly took out a tissue from his pocket,"Wipe your face.Your snot is almost running into your mouth.Don't cry.No matter how big the problem is,as long as you're alive,everything will be okay.What can't you get through?"
I was stunned for a moment,took the tissue,and thanked him.I wiped my tears and blew my nose.
The man handed me another tissue,"Let's exchange contact information.If you need any help,feel free to come to me."
I took out my phone and showed him my QR code,"Sure.Let's add each other on WeChat."
I took a taxi home and took a hot shower.I sat on the sofa and looked at the WeChat page of the man I had just added.
He had already sent several messages,all of which were funny content.There were also some messages in which he tried to find various topics,probably to avoid embarrassment.
I didn't respond.I just stared at the screen.After a long while,he sent another message,"Alas,you're ignoring me.It's obvious that you've been hurt by someone and are using me to feel better,which is why you were so quick to give me your WeChat.
"It doesn't matter.I don't mind.You're such a beautiful person with a good personality,so gentle and polite.It's really rare.If you have anything to talk about,just tell me.I can help you sort it out.Even if I'm not around,there will be someone who likes you and wants to comfort you.There are so many men in the world.Don't get stuck on one person."
My eyes welled up with tears,and I suddenly had an epiphany.
