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I tried to find the familiar feeling from him.Walking beside him,I asked him what he wanted to eat.His hair was messy,and he seemed a bit absent-minded.
I called him twice before he looked up.He asked me in a confused voice,"What's wrong?"
I walked unsteadily towards the kitchen and said it was nothing.In fact,at this point,an onlooker would say,what are you still waiting for?Just leave.No one knew how difficult and arduous our relationship had been.
When I had originally planned to muddle through this world,it was because of him that I wanted to try a little harder.When I was so exhausted and wanted to give up countless times,it was because of thinking of him that I felt there was still hope in life.
We had clearly gotten through the most difficult times.
I just wanted him to tell me clearly with his own mouth and end our love with his own mouth.Didn't our love deserve such a serious ending?Love doesn't care about who came first or last,but love requires sincere treatment.
Christopher came to the kitchen and hugged me from behind.Unexpectedly,he said,"Amanda,let's get married."
The knife in my hand that I was using to cut vegetables accidentally cut my finger.I didn't even change my breathing.Christopher hissed and quickly held up my finger,"Why are you so careless?Let me see."
He held my finger,and the concern in his eyes couldn't be faked.His eyelashes drooped,casting a small shadow,and they trembled slightly.
I let out a sigh and suddenly wanted to talk it out,"Christopher,we..."He suddenly walked outside,as if escaping,with flustered footsteps,"Amanda,I'll get you some Yunnan Baiyao."
I turned on the faucet and rinsed the wound.My finger was connected to my heart,and it throbbed with pain.
Was he afraid that I would accept his proposal,or was he afraid that I would ask him the questions he didn't want to answer?
We didn't mention the previous topic.We had dinner in silence.After dinner,Christopher's phone kept vibrating,but he seemed not to notice it at all and didn't make any move.
I went into the bedroom and curled up into a ball with my back to him.After he came in,he hugged me from behind again and pulled me into his arms.
The next morning,I got up to go for an interview.Christopher walked out of the bedroom with a confused look in his eyes.
"Amanda,where are you going so early?"I said I was going for an interview.
He came over and put his chin on my shoulder,still a bit dazed and lazy with the voice of just waking up,"Amanda is so hardworking.I wish you success in the interview."
I went to the company without having breakfast.The interview was very successful,after all,my educational background was there.
The company had dormitories and directly asked me if I wanted to apply for one.I nodded and replied with a smile,"Yes,thank you."
After coming out of the company,I bought two bouquets of flowers and took a taxi to the cemetery.The tombstones were clean.Compared with the flowers in front of other tombstones,these two were too empty.
I looked at the people in the photos on the tombstones and felt sad instantly.I knelt on the ground and chattered a lot,"Mom and Dad,I'm actually not happy at all."
"I was sick,but I'm recovering well.However,I have to take medicine every day."
"Mom and Dad,do you still remember Christopher Johnson?I thought I would definitely become his bride in this life,but he has fallen in love with someone else."
"We're going to break up,and I'll be alone again soon."
"Actually,I kind of want to go to you,but that's really being sentimental."
"I really want someone to talk to me,about anything."
"Mom and Dad,I want to sleep for a while.I'm so tired."
I stood up,went over and hugged my mother's tombstone,and closed my eyes in a daze.I didn't know how long I sat there.My phone vibrated.Christopher called and asked me,"Amanda,where are you?"
I stood up,swayed,and sat back down,"I'll be back soon.Is there anything you want me to bring?"
He was silent for a moment,"Amanda,I have to work overtime tonight.I'll probably be back a bit late."
I looked back at the photos on the tombstones and said softly,"Okay."
