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I looked up at him,waiting for him to speak,but he said,"I love you."
I was taken aback for a moment,"Christopher,you don't need to emphasize that you love me.Whether you love me or not,I can feel it.Love is reflected in the details and shown in actions."
He nodded,"Yes,of course.I love you every minute and every second."
I lowered my head and didn't expose him.When he was about to go to work,he held me in his arms,"I'll come back early."I said okay.
After Christopher left,I finally had time to thoroughly tour this house from top to bottom.
The decoration in the bedroom was the design style that we had seriously discussed in college.The two-meter-wide bed had the softness and firmness that I was used to.Even the color of the curtains was my favorite light purple.
For a moment,I was confused and flustered.When did we get lost at the crossroads?
Why is it that even Christopher is going to leave me?
I sat on the sofa and tried my best to pull myself out of the painful emotions.Then,I started looking for a house online.
I won't go back to Toronto.My grandparents live in a small two-story building with my uncle.
In the first year I went there,I could still maintain a superficial friendliness with them.But as time went by,our get along was not always so pleasant.
In the second year,I proposed to rent a house and live on my own.My uncle and aunt readily agreed and increased my living expenses every month.
My grandparents could only secretly slip me some money,but they didn't dare to say a word in my defense.I knew they felt guilty,thinking that bringing me there would make my life better.But the reality was cruel.
I went to school and found a restaurant to wash dishes to earn my living expenses at the same time.I finally summoned up the courage in class and gradually adapted to my new classmates.
Christopher would come once every six months and stay for three days each time.Every time he came,his phone would be constantly ringing off the hook.I could hear the shouting and scolding coming from the phone.
Actually,I talked to him about it.I said,"If it doesn't work out,let's just call it quits."
At that time,we were so full of pride and boasted that love was more important than anything else.How could Christopher agree?I was just testing him,but in fact,I was extremely nervous inside.
After hearing what I said,he was taken aback.He leaned forward and pressed me down,punishing me fiercely,"Amanda,don't say such things.None of this is your fault.When you graduate with a master's degree and come back to the country,I'll marry you."
In those three days,we said all the sweet words we could think of,and we couldn't bear to let go of each other.We would release all our feelings of longing physically.
Three days later,we said goodbye with tears in our eyes,saying that we would see each other soon.
I held my phone,and my heart constricted into a ball,feeling extremely painful.
At that time,we wanted to be together forever so much.When we wished we could stick to each other every day,we had to be apart.But now,we clearly had a bright future ahead of us,yet his mind was wandering.
I held my phone and continued to flip through the pages,looking for a place where I could stay.After looking for a long time,there was no suitable one.Then I opened the page and started looking for a job.
Christopher originally wanted me to go to his company,saying that we could go to and from work together,and it could also help his parents gradually accept me.I didn't agree.I thought I should develop my career first and then,with my own abilities,make his parents look at me with new eyes.Looking at it now,I'm glad I didn't agree.
I sent out a few resumes,and immediately the HRs of some companies contacted me and asked me to go for an interview the next day.
At noon,I changed my clothes.For some inexplicable reason,I directly went to Christopher's company.
The girl at the front desk looked up and glanced at me,"Who are you looking for?"I said I was looking for Christopher Johnson.
She lowered her head and said expressionlessly,"Do you have an appointment?"I said no,and that I was his girlfriend.
She immediately looked up,and I couldn't tell what the smile on her lips meant,"Oh?Mr.Johnson's girlfriend?"
She picked up the landline and leisurely made a call,"Hello,someone is looking for Mr.Johnson.She says she's Mr.Johnson's girlfriend.Should he see her?"
I didn't know what was said on the phone.She gave me a sidelong glance,"Okay,he'll see her in a while."
After hanging up the phone,she pointed to the guest sofa on one side of the hall,"You can wait over there."
While I was sitting there waiting,many images flashed through my mind,but I never expected that I would wait for a young and energetic girl.
