Chapter 78
1022words
I was tired. I did not want all this I swore I did not want it but who was fate honestly.
All this had to happen right.
Fate said that it was going to happen whether I liked it or not.
"Leave... me.... alone... Josiah" I managed to say through a broken voice and numerous amount of hiccups after I was done hyperventilating.
He did not let me go and if I thought that I had no more tears left to cry I felt more pooling my eyes and this time i sobbed.
Could you blame me. I had spent three days neglecting myself of crying and i knew that when the time from breaking down would come I wasn't not going to stop the amount of tears that were going to fall.
I just wasn't ready for it.
I was never.
"I am sorry" I heard him murmur and that did nothing to stop my waterfalls.
I did not know if a sorry was going to make anything better. I honestly did not.
"I was an idiot Nayra I said all those words because for so long I thought that you were never going to reciprocate my feelings" he said rubbing my back and I shook even more in his hands.
I found myself fisting his now drenched shirt as I cried even more.
How much of a fool could he be.
"Seeing you like this torments me baby. Please dont cry." He said lying both of us on the bed and I remained curled into him as I silently cried now still shaking from the silent sobs.
I couldn't talk. Literally.
"I love you so much and I am sorry baby" he said rubbing my back as my head pounded.
I never envisioned myself breaking down in front of anyone but here I was.
In the hands on the man who caused it in the first place but as much as i wanted to hate him I could not find it in me.
I couldnt do it. My heart did not allow me to.
"I have been loving you for so damn long to the point of where it took me by surprise when you said that you loved me too. I did not expect it. I am so sorry" he said still rubbing my back and that was doing everything to so make me quiet because I was no longer crying now.
I was focusing on proper breathing which was becoming quiet hard.
"Sshh... baby you are fine" he said still rubbing my back and that did everything to make me feel a little better but the whole time I was quiet.
I couldnt utter a word. I did not think that my brain was able to formulate a whole sentence that made sense at the moment.
The immense headache became too much making me close my eyes finding comfort in both the man that laid next to me and the oncoming slumber.
I did not know how long it took me to fall asleep but I for a fact knew that I slept longer than five hours due to how I was feeling and the darkness in my room confirmed it.
Sitting up the memories of what happened before I fell asleep flooded my mind making me groan.
Why did I embarrass myself like that again.
As much as relief followed from the words of affirmation I heard from Josiah I did not know if I was ready to face him because as much as he said he loved me he needed to prove it.
This time not through demonic sex.
Literally the man could fuck with the stamina of a demon.
Turning the knob of the door to check if it was open I was surprised when it flung open revealing the empty hall way and the dimly lit room.
It was usual for this time of the day for the house to be completely quiet and as I descended down the stairs with nothing on apart from the shirt that covered my ass and barely reached the middle of my thighs.
The room was empty.
Nayra
Looking around the dim room it then hit me that there was something sweet being baked.
Or not.
Maybe I was hungry.
Looking around I heard the movements of someone in the kitchen and I quietly walked there to find two small looking cakes on the counter top.
They looked small enough to fit in a mug and they were glazed with icing sugar then surrounded with strawberries.
My stomach growled. Yep we were definitely hungry.
Josiah emerged from no where holding a can of whipping cream and smiled sheepishly at me.
When did that get in here. It definetly was not there yesterday when I went to look for something to snack on in the refrigerator.
He looked like he expected to find me there as he gave me a longing smile. I did not return it.
I honestly did not know how to feel about all this.
"I figured that you would be hungry but I also knew that you were going to want desert first" he said handing me the plate of the decorated lava cake making me look at him with glassy eyes.
A man after my heart.
Literally.
I moaned after the first bite and his head snapped in my direction making me raise a brow.
Was I oblivious to what I just did. No
Was I going to act as if i did not moan. Yes
"How are you feeling?" He asked without touching his cake as i was halfway done with mine.
I was going to eat his if he continued like this.
Shrugging my shoulders not knowing the correct answer to that question I murmured "fine I guess" then went back to eating.
He nodded his head in understanding then silence followed next. The only sound that was heard was my spoon hitting the plate.
"I am sorry Nayra" he said once more making me look at him.
