Chapter 58
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"I told you that I don't have children outside and Ahren will be the only one" he said looking at her, then she waited for a while and nodded at him before looking away. He knew that she was angry, but he didn't know how to make her not get angry at him from time to time.
"Mirela, I used protection okay? Just believe me with this. No woman can get pregnant because I paid attention to protections every time" he explained as he walked out of the courtyard of their house. Then she looked at him and clenched her jaws angrily. Ascian sighed and let her do anything without speaking.
While they were walking, suddenly something hit on his mind as his body went numb remembering it. Horror took over him as he looked at her, and then his eyes fell on her belly slowly. Why the fuck did he forget everything? What if she gets pregnant? She will just lose her life. His mind was a mess and he clenched his jaws looking at Mirela's innocent face.
"Mirela, what do you think about a second child?" he forced himself to ask. He wanted to know what her impression was about having another child. Even if she couldn't give birth and they are not having a child again, he wanted to know.
She looked at him with wide eyes, she didn't say anything, she just watched him for a while and then forcefully smiled at him. Ascian clenched his jaws and waited for her answer, he was impatient. He wanted to tell her that she can't have children anymore but he didn't have the courage to tell her because it was all because of his fault.
"You want another child Ascian?" she looked at him and asked, making him utterly helpless. How can he answer her? In the deep inside of his heart he loved to have a daughter. He wanted his daughter to be like Mirela but he knew it was impossible with everything that had happened to her and she was not strong enough to give birth to another child for Ascian.
"If you want another child, let's have one" she smiled at him and muttered.
His heart tightened, guilt was killing him alive. Looking at her innocent smile, he felt that he had made a huge mistake by rejecting her. A reflective shudder went through his body and he just lowered his head not knowing how to reply to her. She's ready to give him another child but how is it possible? Maybe, time will solve everything.
"Not soon Mirela, let's wait for sometime" he smiled and caressed her face as she nodded at him happily. Seeing how happy she was his heart really hurt, what if she found that she cannot give birth to children anymore? Actually she can but giving birth to another child means she will lose her life.
So he had to choose her over his desire to have a daughter. He was not ready to let her go and he will never be ready for that again in his life so he won't be so ignorant and do it without protection again. Then he watched her face for a while and smiled.
"We will have a daughter," he said, wanting to comfort her. Then she looked at him and bit her lower lip shyly then nodded at him with a smile. He couldn't help but chuckle seeing her. He would not let her know her real situation. He would just lie to her again but this time for her own good.
"Ascian, where are we going now?" she asked him, wrapping her arm around his. Then he sighed and looked at her. Didn't he mention that they were going to see warriors fighting? Oh he forgot to tell her that. Without answering her question, he led her towards the round where warriors were fighting.
As they entered, no one paid attention to them. His men were looking at two female warriors who were having a deadly fight. Watching them for a while, Ascian scanned through the seating area as he finally spotted Ahren who was sitting on his beta's shoulder watching the deadly fight.
"Let's go there.." he whispered against her ear and walked towards where Ahren was. Mirela nodded at him and walked through the seats as Ascian followed her without letting go of her hand. Then they reached Ahren and looked at him with a smile.
"Momma.. You're here" he screamed and raised his little arms asking Mirela to carry him. She nodded and walked towards him wanting to carry him but before she could do that, Ascian carried Ahren and looked at Mirela. He thought that carrying Ahren would make her exhausted because she was weak.
"I'll carry him. He's heavy, Mirela" he said with a smile. Looking at Mirela's frown, he pressed his lips together and sat on a chair placing Ahren on his lap. Then Mirela sat next to him and looked at his face.
"What made you think that I can't carry my son Ascian? Are you kidding me?" her voice was somewhat angry and at the same time she was shocked because he said something like that. Without looking at her face, he just watched the fight.
He just completely ignored Mirela because he didn't want to answer her questions. He knew that she's getting angry at him every time and he deserved it. Kissing Ahren's forehead, he watched the fight until he felt Mirela was pinching his arm so hard. He groaned and looked at her childish face.
"Why are you ignoring me? Jerk" she whispered angrily against his ear. Ascian couldn't help but smile because of the way she looked at him. He really felt helpless, he couldn't even ignore her and that was her rule. He smiled and shook his head.
"Not ignoring you. Just focusing on the fight" lifting his arm, he caressed her face. Then she hummed and looked away from him as she watched the fight. Ascian didn't move his eyes from her, he just couldn't manage to look away because of the beauty she had.
She was gorgeous and innocent. A woman like her was always weak, but he loved her delicateness and lovely personality. She was unique, she was pure. Now he regrets, he regrets his actions from three years ago. He didn't have to do that and he just simply didn't have to hurt her.
Moving his eyes from her, he looked at the little boy on his lap focusing on the fight. Kissing his little head he watched the fight thinking that everything was over and everything was peaceful because both Mirela and Ahren were in his arms.
"Daddy, they get hurt right?" turning his head, Ahren looked at Ascian and asked. Ascian smiled at him and nodded.
"Hmm. but they will heal soon," he replied. Ahren was perfect, and he was strong. Remembering the thing which happened to them when they were in the forest and how Ahren again came back for him, he felt so proud to have a son like that.
Mirela had given birth to the best Lucas blood which made him surprised. Ahren's abilities were unimaginable and at this young age he could hunt and kill.
"You will become the strongest alpha, Ahren" he whispered against Ahren's ear. Then he giggled and looked at Ascian and smiled.
"Like you daddy?" he asked.
"No, more stronger than daddy" Ascian replied and kissed his forehead. He really wanted to see his son as the greatest alpha among every alpha. He wanted Ahren to hold the position as the most feared and dangerous alpha everyone feared, just like he did.
'Ahren Lucas'
The name should make everyone shiver from both fear and gratitude! That's what Ascian wanted while Mirela wanted him to be kind and a good man.
