Chapter 39
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He looked at her, he could feel her, her heart beat and everything but he knew she could not feel him because her wolf was not in her anymore. He raised his arm and wiped her tears and pulled her to a hug.
He hugged her against his chest, his heart was aching for her and for what he did to her. She didn't deserve that for loving him and he never expected something like this would happen to her. If he ever had a clue that it would make her wolf leave her, he would never reject her.
"You're a bastard Ascian. I feel like killing you"
She was crying as she spoke. He felt that his shirt was getting wet because of her tears. He smiled and patted her back wanting to comfort her.
"Yes," he agreed with her without an argument. He was really a bastard. He didn't want a luna because of the experience he had with his mother. She was a bad woman and the worst Luna ever and his father suffered.
Even though he was blessed with a woman like Mirela, he was blinded by the bad experiences of his life so he hurt her for nothing. He knew that she was innocent and the real opposite from his mother but he didn't have the heart to keep her with him and make her his Luna.
His mind was telling him that he doesn't need a luna, so he did as his mind said and rejected her after taking the pleasure of having a mate, he just threw her away. He was guilty for what he did but he still couldn't understand the feeling in his heart. He still doesn't know if he loved her or not.
"I'm sorry" he uttered as he kissed her head. Then she broke the hug and looked up at him with surprised eyes.
"For what? Because of my wolf?" she asked him.
Ascian helplessly smiled at her without answering, he was not sorry for her wolf, he was just sorry for everything he did to her ignoring her feelings. He hurt her so badly, not only three years ago but also three years later. He chained her and hurt her knowing that she was innocent and weak.
He thought she was in love with Hale so that's why she wanted to go there but it ended with something he never expected. Even if he hurt her so badly, she had raised his son with love and affection.
"Mirela, if I was you, I would never give birth to a child of the man who hurt me. Trust me" he spoke in a low voice.
Mirela looked at his eyes and smiled before shaking her head. Ascian saw the way her eyes changed and the way her eyes filled with love as he mentioned that. She let out a deep sigh and smiled at him again.
"You would do the same thing I did if you were in the situation as me. Which mother can abort a child, Ascian? I don't know but I couldn't and I didn't even think about it. Doctors asked me to do that but, I didn't have the heart to abort him, he was inside of me and I felt him. So how can I?"
Her eyes turned moist again as she spoke. She was telling the truth but no matter what he couldn't feel the feelings in her heart because he was not a woman and he didn't understand that much. Letting out a deep sigh, Ascian got up from the bed.
"You can't feel my people right?" he asked her, looking at her blue eyes. She forcefully smiled at him and shook her head.
"They are welcoming you as the Luna of their pack" Ascian spoke with a smile. Mirela smiled at him and got up from the bed as she walked towards him.
"Well, do I need to talk to them?" she asked him. Then he sighed and shook his head. He cannot let anyone know that Mirela's wolf is not here with her. Even if he trusted his people, he had something to fear about. He didn't know what would come in the future and what would happen.
If anyone who goes against him wants to have a fight or hurt him, they will always pay attention to Mirela if they find that she is weak. She was really weak and she was not fit to be the Luna but she became like that because of his own fault and it was his time to pay the debt.
He should protect her with his everything, no matter what happens he should be there for her. He sighed and shook his head.
"No need Mirela, they will visit you from time to time but don't ever let them know what's the truth. I don't want to see you in any danger again" he was honest and that was the thing inside of his heart.
Things which happened to them were already enough and he didn't want her body to have anymore bruises. Looking at her neck, hands and her legs are already enough and also her back which he whipped her that day.
"Alright" she obediently smiled at him as the same girl from three years ago, Ascian's heartbeat increased seeing her, he stopped his actions as watched her for a while. Then wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her to him.
"What are you doing?" she asked him, but ignoring her words he pressed his lips against hers and started to kiss her passionately. He loved kissing her so he did it.
"Mmmph" Mirela moaned and clutched his shirt tightly. Asican couldn't help but chuckle, no matter how many years passed, she would always be the same. She will always clutch his shirt when he kisses her.
Gently pushing her against the wall, he deepened the kiss. She slowly wrapped her arms around his neck and traveled her fingers through his hair giving him a comfort filled feeling. He groaned and lifted her up as she wrapped her legs around his waist.
Feeling her against his body was a great feeling, he loved it and he was just obsessed with it. Kissing her for a long time, he walked towards the bed and placed her on it as he took off his shirt. He was losing his sanity and he wanted to do it.
He couldn't have her for so long and now he wanted to have her, he was already hard for her but the annoying thing was that she didn't have strength with her. Her body was weak. So he had to force his desires back for her health.
Kissing her will be enough, he thought as he started to kiss her again. Lifting her dress up he touched the smooth skin of her legs. He clenched his jaws as he felt those silky skin.
"Ascian.." Mirela moaned as he traveled his hands on them, her moans made things even harder for him.
"Fuck!" Ascian cursed and stopped what he was doing as he got off from her body. Then he looked at her lust filled eyes and waited for a while before looking away. He cannot have her now so he shouldn't look at her.
Then suddenly, he remembered something. He stopped and smirked as he looked at Mirela. Getting up from the bed, he walked towards the door and locked it as he came back while unbuckling his belt.
Stopping in front of her, he looked at her. Mirela was biting her lips innocently just like their first day but she knew what he was asking for. Moving closer to him, she sat on the bed while he was facing her.
Raising her hands, she removed the belt from his pants and unzipped his pants. She looked up at him with her blushing face and then removed his pants as she took his hard length. Ascian touched her face and traveled his thumb on her perfect rose petals like lips, then a smirk appeared on his face.
