Chapter 250 NOT ABLE TO LET HER GO
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The dinner went smoothly, Tessa cooked a delicious feast which at first I wasn't able to believe that she had cooked by herself but then when I was not able to find Miss Celine around her, I realized indeed she has cooked everything herself, but why?
Is she giving the feast as the last food cooked by her in this mansion?
Suddenly, my mouth goes dry from this thought and all the flavors of the dishes fade from my mouth.
Now, I am bitter, feeling like chewing the rubber instead of having a delicious feast.
Sigh…
Just by thinking of their departure, I am feeling so sour and dull, what will happen when they will leave for real?
Be Strong, Andrew Jack. This day has to come one day, you knew it very well.
After dinner, I accompany the kids. Aaron is still weak while Cyrus is as usual energetic and funny. Soon, the sleepyhead yawns, and I am forced to leave their room. I keep looking at Cyrus not wanting to leave, I don't know if tomorrow night I will see him in the same place sleeping peacefully.
I doubt it.
With a sad heart, I walk to my study. I have ignored all the work-related things during Aaron's treatment, I wonder if Lillian was able to handle things with Ron beside her for help.
The best way to distract me is to indulge myself in work. I call Lillian wondering if she is still awake or not, gladly she is.
"Andrew, has Aaron been discharged?" She asks as soon as the call connects.
"Yes," I reply in a dull tone. "Can we check on work now?" I ask her before she would bombard me with more questions about my dull tone.
"Yeah, sure." She says and then soon she connects with me online on the video call while I check the emails and we discuss some important details.
"Oh, I forgot to ask, how's your wife and Cyrus now? Are they still…" She pauses looking hesitant, Bravo, the thing I had been trying to distract my mind from, she has pointed out the same one.
"I am asking Ron to book their tickets in a few days, Ann isn't here so it would be great if they leave in her absence," I tell her and then hurriedly text Ron to inform him about this.
I ask him to come over and take money from me, I don't want to use the credit card to book the flights because in this way Ann will know about their exact location.
After half an hour, I am done with Lillian, and my door knocks.
KNOCK … KNOCK …
Ron enters the room and I look at him apologetically, "Uhm, Sorry to bother you so late at night, but this work needs to be done quickly."
He nods his head in understanding and I hand him the money.
"Sir, this is the time you should…" Again he begins to reveal to me about Tessa's doing in the last week but I am completely not interested as I cut him off.
"Ron, I am not interested. Book the tickets, and send them away before new trouble begins in my life. Kindly." I force the last words and looking at me for a moment, he sighs helplessly.
"Ok, Sir," And just then with a poker face he leaves.
BOOM
Again, I get busy with some work, I had already slept in the day so I am not even sleepy.
I don't know how much time has passed until the door opens for my study and I look up to find Tessa walking inside with a puffy face, has she been crying?
"What happened?" I stand from my place in panic, did something happen to the kids?
She stays quiet staring at me with red eyes, even her nose is red now.
"You lied to me," She yells in a hoarse voice.
"What happened, Tessa? Are kids ok?" I ask anxiously, holding her shoulder, my eyes going to the closed door and then at her face.
Suddenly, she pushes me away, making me stagger back from her and stumble.
"You planned everything… You were the one who let us escape from the hospital, Why?" She questions furiously.
"Who told you this?" I question back.
"Is it true?" She demands and I shake my head, "It's all nonsense, I did nothing." I lie.
She takes a few steps and then slaps me across the face, hard.
PAA
"Bastard, you're still lying." She hold my shirt pulling me closer to her, "Swear on me, you were not in this, Swear on me, that all these years you had no clue where we were." She says emotionally and all the blood from my face drains.
I did what was necessary, trying to pay off her love, her all good towards a coward like me. I don't want her to feel debt because of what I did to her.
I don't want her to stay trapped with me because of that. I want her to stay but with her full heart and love for me not by any force, or compulsion of paying me back.
"You and Cyrus are leaving tomorrow." I try to change the subject but she is as usual stubborn.
"No, we're not. Until you tell me the truth." She starts to sob, she looks furious yet broken and it breaks my heart too.
"Yes, it was me…" Finally, I accepted.
"Why?" She breathes heavily, her eyes searching for answers.
"You don't know, why?" I gritted my teeth and then holding her shoulders I pull her up near to my face, "Because I love you, Damn it."
My grip tightens as I confess my love to her, and she blinks while shedding more tears from her eyes.
F**K
"I love you, Tessy, I really do. There was nothing I could give you to make you happy except our child, so I planned everything and gives you what you deserve." I confess sadly with guilt in my eyes.
"Why didn't you come to look for us?" She asks.
"How could I? Ann was mad in order to find you, any move towards you could lead her to you. And you know very well what would happen then." I take a deep look at her red face and then let go of her.
"I was a coward, I wasn't able to protect you and finally when I realized this, it was too late. I wanted you back but these last days I have seen that I have completely lost you, Tessa. So, it's better you leave from here. Forget the past and begin your life from the new beginning."
Although my heart is bleeding while saying those words I try to appear calm and collected in front of her, she shouldn't know that it still hurts me to see her so distant from me, to see her love vanish for me.
She looks at me with teary eyes, and I try to not show my emotions looking straight into her eyes as coldly as I could.
Turn around and leave.
She lifts her foot and suddenly she throws herself in my arms trying to break my barriers.
BOOM
I clench my fists, not wanting to lose myself, and hold her in my arms and then ravish her, No.
I stay cold and stern while she sobs on my chest, I feel the wetness but with a stone face, I stay rooted to my place not showing her any emotion.
"I have tried to forget you in all these years, but you always stay with me, Andrew. How could a person forget their first love, huh? How could I forget my husband who loved me with all his heart? How could I forget the father of my children? How?" She sobs emotionally, making me suffocate by her words.
"I wasn't able to protect you, Tessy." I hiss in pain looking down into her sea blue eyes which come clearer than before.
"You were… You did protect me in a way." She says softly, kissing my neck and then my chin, I flinch from her warmth, what the hell is she doing?
She should leave, this is the best option.
"Don't." I hold her wrists that start to get eager to touch me in a way that would burn me.
"I love you, Andrew… I still do." She confesses and my heart drops to my knees, I am in emotional turmoil, not knowing if I should push her away or pull her closer, rewarding her for her confession to me.
The time stops between us, our eyes staring into each other with sadness, longing, and guilt, she leans her head forward slowly kissing my jawline making me groan painfully.
"Tessa, stop," I warn her when her lips start to move to my lips and kiss the corner of my lips. Losing my patience, I grip her hair and then glower, "Stop this."
"I love you." She confesses the same thing and finally breaking all the barriers, I slam my lips on her, enough of holding back, now I won't.
Grabbing her hips, I pull her against my growing erection, her hands are in my hair and she is kissing me back hungrily, F**k, I missed her mouth, that night she won't let me kiss her at all.
It frustrated me to the core.
I kiss her hard, same passion burning into me, she tastes good, so sweet.
She moans into my mouth making my groin more hard, God, this woman.
I move my hand into her hair, pulling her head back so I can angle my tongue deeper into her mouth. Her tongue wrestles with mine.
F**k.
-it's erotic, raw, and intense.
I pull back. "Stop me, Tessy, or I won't be able to let go."
"So then don't." She breathes against my mouth and scrutinizing her face for a moment, I again start to explore her mouth, there is no way I would let her go now.
