Chapter 247 Anxious Heart
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I could sense the way Andrew keeps looking at me in disbelief, he must be wondering what is wrong with me. And I feel so weird that being normal could become a question mark in life, who would have thought about it?
Eating pizza with him forces me to remember my time with him, all the time we had spent laughing, giggling, and enjoying each other's company, everything keeps coming into my mind and I start to feel a lump in my throat.
Those memories are overwhelming.
Gulping the last piece of my slice, I stand to throw the plate away when Andrew's stunned voice stops me, "You're done?"
"Uhm, yeah," I squeeze a small smile in reply and then turn to dump the plastic plate and the plastic glass in the bin.
"You used to eat more before." Andrew speaks when I take back my seat, "I used to." I agree with a bitter heart and he looks at me with some emotions that I don't intend to dwell on at all.
I clean the table and then put Cyrus for a nap. He should take a nap, the transfusion would start in the evening, and he should rest until then.
While. I put him to sleep, I also unknowingly fall asleep and when my eyes open from sleep, I hear some familiar noises from outside the room.
Blinking my eyes, I try to remove the blurriness from my eyes and then slowly stand up from my place, I get close to the door and frown, and the voices start to get clear.
"Let me see her once."
"I said, she is sleeping with our son."
"Still, I just need to see if she is okay."
"That's none of your concern."
The arguments start to get heated and before something worse would happen I immediately open the door and step out of the room, "What's going on here?"
I look at both men and ask with a straight face.
"Are you ok?" The man asks, scanning me with his worried eyes.
I nod my head at him and the other man sneers loudly, "I told you."
"What are you doing here, Aiden?" I divert my eyes from Andrew and ask him.
"I heard you're in the hospital so just came to check on you. You haven't replied to my emails and your phone is also switched off." Aiden replies and then starts to explain his worries towards me.
If I say his words did nothing to me I would be lying, his words touch my heart and I feel warm from his concern, I never expected him to be concerned for me, this is totally unexpected, something out of the blue.
"Oh, my laptop is at home, and my phone… I think it's dead." I tell him apologetically.
"It's okay, just wanted to see if you're okay." Aiden says dismissively, turning to leave when I stop him impulsively, "Aiden, please wait."
I then turn to Andrew, "Can you please accompany Cyrus, I want to have a word with Aiden."
Andrew looks at me with a dark face and then his gaze goes to Aiden, and then again at me, "Please." I whisper in a low voice and finally, he lets out the breath he has been holding and quietly walks back to the room leaving us both alone.
"Aiden, whatever happened that night I sincerely apologized for everything I did, and the way Andrew treated you." I finally speak out my apology that I had been thinking to say to him since the incident.
He turns, his eyes boring into mine when he moves his lips, "It's fine, he did what any husband would do to save his wife."
His words are simple and harmless but somewhere I feel a sting in my heart.
Husband and Wife, we were supposed to be.
"I should have told you the truth before," I murmur with embarrassment.
"Would it have changed anything today?" He questions, his face getting dark unusually.
I look at him in silence, biting my lips, would this revelation have changed anything for him or me?
"You should have known why I never left you alone in college." He speaks out and my eyes widen when I try to fix the puzzles, "Why was I so mad when you left the college so suddenly?"
He takes a step towards me and I step back subconsciously, "Why did I fight with those guards to get through you?"
Another step
"Why did I send my men to Chicago to look for you?"
Another step.
"I had been looking for you for years and finally when I found you, you had married someone and even gave birth to his children." He groans, a look of disdain appearing on his face.
"A..i..de..n…" I stutter frightened from his sudden dark appearance towering over me in the corner.
"How could you not see me, Tessa, How? I knew I was stupid, harsh, rough because I never knew how to love, Damn It." Furiously, he raises his fist and I close my eyes, petrified.
But nothing comes to my harm and then I hear a deep sigh.
"Hah…"
And I open my eyes, "This is what I never want, The fear you have from me, you used to be bold, a fighter, now, you're nothing but a fearful person." His head hangs low when he speaks.
"I am leaving, Tessa. You were never entitled to me nor I was entitled to you, it was all in my head, the feelings I had all the things I thought would be possible between us one day, it was all an illusion. I'll hand over your money once you're done with the designs."
He says in a deeply broken voice and then turns to leave when I try to stop him by calling out his name, "Aiden."
"It wasn't your fault. We were never destined to be together."
BOOM
And just like that, he is gone, not letting me say another word to explain to him that I never intended to hurt him so badly, I never had any idea of his liking towards me, I thought he used to hate me, but now, things seem to have changed in my mind.
How could I never be able to see him? Because I always had Andrew in my heart and my mind, he never allows anyone else to enter into my heart, and yet he betrayed me in the worst way possible turning me into a pathetic human that today my normal behavior seems weird to him.
I shed a few tears in anguish and then instead of heading back to the room, I walk away from there wanting to spend some alone time to clear my mind.
My son, Aaron, still needs me, for the last time, I can't disappoint him. He needs me now and I have to fulfill my rights as his mother.
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"Ok Cyrus, now you have to be a good boy," I tell Cyrus as I put a cap on his head and then hold him up in my arms, this is the time for his bone marrow collection, the procedure would be painful and I am more terrified than Cyrus to face this.
Hence, I can't show my fear on my face, I am not allowed to.
I carry Cyrus in my arms Instead of putting him on the patient bed to take him to the OPT. My heart starts to lower with each step we are taking toward the OTP.
I am trying my best to stay strong but somehow I know I am going to panic.
My hands starts to sweat profusely when we reached the OTP and I put Cyrus on the patient bed with a heavy heart, "Tessa, go to Aaron, I'll take care of Cyrus." A gentle squeeze at my shoulder distracts me and I turn to face Andrew, my eyes start to get water when he instantly wipes them with his thumb.
"I am here with him, don't worry." He holds me and comforts me while I try my best to not shed a tear which would make Cyrus anxious.
"Hmm…" I nod my head but couldn't form a word, as though a lump is stuck in my throat. Andrew didn't even wait for me to speak as he takes a seat beside Cyrus, "Cyrus, wave your mother goodbye, I'll accompany you today." He hugs him warmly in his arms and I thought that Cyrus would refuse him straightly but no, surprisingly he turns to me, waving his hand quickly at me, "Mommy, go and take care of Aaron, Daddy will take care of me."
I look at both of them dumbfounded and soon the doctor's and nurse's arrival made me withdraw my steps from the OPT. Anxiously, I walk to Aaron's room, he is still having an infusion and he is slightly dizzy from the weakness.
I enter his room quietly and then crawl beside him in the bed. I gently pull him near me and then embrace him in my arms, he is too petite and my heart bleeds for him. I wish I will be able to take him away with me, but how?
I look down at his pale face caressing his hair affectionately when he moves in his sleep, "Mommy…" his voice is low.
"Yes, my dear."
"Please, don't leave me, Mommy." He curls his body in my arms, holding my clothes tightly in his fist.
Oh, my poor child.
"I won't, Aaron, Mommy stays with Aaron, ok." I pat him and soon he dozes off in his sleep while I tighten my hold on him, my mind keeps going on Cyrus, I hope he will be doing fine in there with Andrew beside him.
Hopefully.
