Chapter 170 PEACE AND LOVE
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Dr. Kavanagh has been treating me with Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) The first thing she has taught me during this therapy is to meditate to calm my anger and my anxiety.
At the moment, I am angry slightly as I start to meditate and take deep breaths to calm my nerves when suddenly Tessa's body touches mine and I frown, tilting my head I look at her, her back is o me and she is deliberately pushing herself into me, ignoring her efforts I close my eyes again and try to focus on my meditation.
"Hubby?" She calls out and I respond quickly to her, "Hmm."
"Are you awake?" She asks.
"Yes," I replied.
"So then why are you not touching me?" She asks, I could feel the anxiousness in her voice.
"Why should I?" I state firmly and my words trigger her as she sits up and turns to me, "What do you mean?"
"Nothing," I reply tiredly and then turn to my side when suddenly she holds my arm and pushes me back to her and then, making me stunned, she sits on my torso looking like an angry bear or an orange-red pumpkin.
"Tessy," I groaned when she unknowingly rubbed my groin hard.
"Look at me, Andrew." She demands furiously. "I am your wife, so don't ever say why you should touch your wife," Her words were so senseless that I couldn't help but chuckle at her stupidity. What's her point exactly in this???
She has turned red now from anger while I calmly place my hand on my forehead, watching her playfully, "Wife? I don't remember having a wife for the last whole month."
I remind her. She has no idea about the women that tried to hit on me.
I am loyal to her otherwise she would never know If I had been sleeping with other women. Such a fool, she is.
"If you had shown a little courage to talk with Ann about us, this would never happen." She sneers at me.
What the … !!
I frown unhappily, "So, you think I didn't try, Tessy. I did but Ann didn't listen. You know she is not the one in our house to listen to anyone. And it takes some time to bring the change. I can't change things overnight, it happens in stories not in real life, Tessy." I retorted.
Does she think I haven't tried??
I had Tessy, but I can't force her.
"I… I am sorry, hubby." She apologized and it was completely unexpected.
Woah… she is soo lovingly sweet and pure. How could I ever resist her??
Sigh…
But she makes me suffer, how could I forgive her easily??
"I don't accept it," I refuse and she looks at me in shock.
What? For a whole month, she had been ghosted, can't I show a little tantrum at this moment?
"I said I am sorry," She emphasized trying to intimidate me with her wrath.
LOL
This won't work Tessy. I need something else rather than an apology.
"Prove it," I tell her meaningfully and then wait for her to understand what I desire?
She smirks and my pupils get narrow in anticipation, she holds my head and leans down to kiss me. I fist my hands not letting her take control of me so soon but the way she teases my lips with her tongue, it makes me kind of frustrated and impatient as I capture her lips between my teeth wanting to bite them mercilessly but then stop as I stare into her clear eyes that always mesmerize me in an unexpected way.
I slide my tongue inside her mouth devouring her delicious mouth, while my hands go to her back pressing her more into my groin. F**k, she feels so good. After so long, finally, we are able to get the blessing of each other's warmth and touch.
I was so lost in our passionate kiss that I nearly forgot about the child that is growing in her belly. Our child…
Oh, F**k…
I pull away immediately, and remind her, "You're pressing your belly." I am breathless and panting and so is she.
Then turning her carefully so that I could get on top of her, I looked down at her intently.
"How are you?" I ask.
I haven't asked her about her health and child since I entered.
"At this moment, you remember to ask me this?" She says displeased.
"What is wrong in asking my wife this?" I ask with an innocent face.
"Hubby, we are in the middle of something." She says and then looking desperate she wraps her arms around my neck pulling me closer and making me press her stomach further.
Is she horny?
"Andrew, aren't you here to make love to me?" She questions in agitation.
And I look at her in offense, see, this is why I was trying to not get physical this night. She would take me as a sex freak, I am visiting her here by taking so many danger and she thinks I am here for a F**k.
God, Tessy.
I wish I could tell her all the things that happened in her absence.
"Do you think I have come here for sex, seriously, Tessy? You think of me as such a low person?" I ask, can't hide the disappointment in my tone.
I sit up from her to lay beside her when she impassively holds my arm and blurts out anxiously, "Don't you want me anymore?"
Oh My Stupid Wife, if I don't want you why would I be here, huh?
Why would I be taking therapy to make myself perfect for you, for our child?
"Tessy, I am here because I do want you in my life and I am worried for you too. So, now, tell me how are you?" I tell her to calm her worries.
I don't want her to think that I am regretting my decision of being with her because I am clearly not.
"I am fine, see." She gives me a pleasant smile that brings brightness to her eyes. I watch her smile in fascination and then my gaze gets lower to her and stops at her belly, the child.
"And… And how's the… baby?" I touch her belly.
"The baby is absolutely fine, I had a checkup before I left for Aspen, and also Miss Celine gives me the medicines from time to time. So, don't worry." She replies happily there is a unique glimmer in her eyes and on her face whenever she mentions the child and I am petrified by her deep love for the child that is soon going to snatch away from her.
Oh Lord, would I be able to stop Ann from doing this cruelty to Tessa, to a mother?
I have no idea.
She starts to inspect my face and I immediately squeeze out a small smile to her, "I can see it's getting big now." pointing at her belly.
"Yeah, our child is growing," She says with pure affection and then presses my palm on her belly, "Feel."
Tensing, I pull my hand away from her belly making an excuse, "Let me feel my wife first."
Yeah, I am still not very comfortable with the child's presence between us, somehow his existence has created a huge fear in my heart of losing Tessy, and because of this reason, I am not able to open up my heart for my child or enjoy his existence at all.
"I missed you a lot." I hug her tightly in my arms.
"Me too." She says in reply, making my heart wide with warmth and joy.
This moment is so adorable between us, just us together, no lust, no desire, no heat, but calmness, peace, and love, only.
Together, and forever.
This night, I don't indulge her in anything but instead, we talk, the best therapy I could ever get telling about my feelings in her absence. I tell her many things about my days without her in the mansion and she also talks a lot about her days.
She still doesn't have any knowledge about the child's growth except that the child is healthy and so is she. That gives me a reminder of her medicines I need to give them in the morning.
When she finally falls asleep in my arms, I pick up my phone and thankfully Ann hasn't called me because she must be busy with a seminar, that seminar is a busy gathering with many high-end and famous people attending it.
I hope Ann won't get a single second to call me at all.
With Tessa, it would be difficult for me to talk to Ann.
I check my emails, and Lillian hasn't sent anything related to work.
Good, I don't want any work tension for these three days. I have already informed Dr. Kavanagh about my leave and asked Ron to pay for her sessions on time.
After I return I need to go back to her. Since I have started therapy I have started to feel confident in myself and I am sure soon I will be able to make a great change in my life.
Before sleeping, I confirm the delivery time of my car for tomorrow's adventure.
I am very excited about tomorrow. Tomorrow I am going to take Tessa to multiple places that I had been to in my childhood.
A great way to refresh my childhood memories with the person I love the most and now also I don't feel haunted and frightened by my past.
I am utterly calm and all credit goes to Dr. Kavanagh.
I am positive that once the therapy will finish I will be able to confront Ann and prove her wrong about her statement about me being sick.
I am not sick, I was never…
