Chapter 160 FIRST APPOINTMENT
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After returning from my run, I am still distracted and worried from that nightmare. Frustrated, I slam the door of my room forgetting about my sleepy log wife when I hear a low groan escape from her mouth.
"Oh, F**k, Tessy."
Her groan reminds me of her presence in my room and somehow I start to feel calm and happy.
I walk closer to her sleepy figure, she sleeps every night in that seductive nightdress and I would be glad to discover if she is wearing something beneath or not.
Slowly, I crawl towards her instead of going for a bath. I know my mind and my body needs calmness that only she can provide.
I kiss every inch of her skin in her sleep, she moves, groans but doesn't wake up and finally when I accomplish my plan, she opens her mouth and breathes, "Hubby."
"I. Love. You. Tessy." With each thrust, I confess not to her but more to myself. I have to protect her this time… I have to…
I collapse on top of her, breathing heavily and then burying my head into the soft skin of her br**sts, F**k, it feels like heaven.
"Hubby, what is it?" Tessy starts massaging my hair with her fingers and asks softly.
"What?" I ask blankly, Did I again lose my posture??
"There is something wrong. I can sense it. What is it?" She asks and the nightmare again hits me as I hold her tightly in my grip, frightened. "I don't want to lose you."
"I am not going anywhere." She says but it won't calm my anxious heart. She doesn't know Ann, if she is firm on something she would find all the ways to get that work done and I am afraid…
I am afraid of losing her… I am not a strong person, not like Ann.
I am weak, I am useless, and may be sick as Ann had mentioned.
Would she accept me after knowing about my sickness, the traumas I have, the depression???
"Hubby, we need to get ready." I was lost in her warmth when she reminded me while shaking me lightly. Finally, I sit up and offer a shower but she looks hesitant.
I smile at the way she looks nervous around me, she has unusually become shy these days. I assure her that except for the bath we won't do anything and I keep my words as we both get ready together just like a typical husband and wife.
We reached the dining table and Ann was already seated waiting for us.
We greet Ann in unison and she looks in a good mood. "Tessa, dear we are leaving now… If you need to take anything from the room ask Miss Celine to bring it." Ann speaks as she stands after finishing the breakfast.
Tessa shakes her head and then we both follow Ann outside.
"Andrew, why are you still here? Go to your office." Ann asks with a raised brow when she notices me behind her standing with Tessa.
Am I not supposed to accompany my wife?
"Isn't Andrew accompanying us in the hospital, Ann?" Before I am able to open my mouth, Tessa jumps in. Oh F**k, please Tessy don't say anything stupid. Quiet…
"No, why do we need his company? A man should focus on his work, not on his wife's appointments." Straight refusal from Ann and I know, now, there is no place left for argument, not in front of Tessa.
Tessa turns to me, her eyes pleading. Oh please, my dear.
I have to disappoint you again.
"Ann is right, Tessy. You both take care, I'll leave for work." I say aloud, and then kiss Tessa's forehead to calm down her anger, I hope.
And then I head straight to my car, Ron was already present and greeting him politely, I sit inside the car. My heart is anxious and distressed all the time while thinking about Tessa's small face.
I try my best to not show any emotions to Ann about Tessa's pregnancy, I know she won't like it.
"Hey, Mr. Lover," Lillian's teasing voice brings me back from my worries as I look up at her, she has placed a glass of juice on my desk.
"Fresh berry juice." She smiles and I roll my eyes, "Who says I like berries?" I question her with slight anger and she completely ignores it.
"At least, taste it. You might like it." She says handing me the glass, I take a sip and it tastes ok, I can drink this.
"So, what happened now?" She asks, her inquiring mode has started.
"Tessa has gone for her first check-up," I tell her.
"Without you?" She raises her brow in disbelief.
"Yup, Ann is accompanying her." I tell her, "But, you are her husband." She snaps not in anger but in her point of view.
"I know, she is angry, I guess," I said as I took another sip of juice feeling bitter in my heart, the look of disappointment on her face was clearly visible.
F**k, how bad she would be feeling.
"She should be," Lillian says, adding to my worries.
Thank you so much for your honesty, Lillian.
I glare at her unhappily and she shrugs, "What? This is her right, man. You should have accompanied her, this is your first child after all."
And maybe the last, I mutter under my breath, feeling depressed.
"It's ok, go home, apologize to her," Lillian suggests and I nod my head, what else choice do I have?
Disappoint her first, and then apologize.
This cycle keeps repeating in our lives, not changing ever.
"But I won't be able to attend her appointment ever. You know Ann is in charge." I tell Lillian hoping for her to give me a good piece of advice. After all, she is also a woman and from her past experience, I know that she had done an abortion too.
"Are you concerned about the child?" She asks.
I pause for a moment, I am happy for the child but not that much excited, after all the child's arrival means Tessa would be leaving me and I am not in favor of this.
But the child's health seems important too because if a child is healthy then the mother would be healthy too.
"Yes," I replied plainly.
"The doctor will discuss everything with your wife regarding the baby. So, don't worry, if she won't accept your apology then talk about her appointment she surely will forget everything.." She winks and I give her an amusing smile.
"You know, sometimes, you are very cunning, Lillian." I tell her and she chuckles, "You mean to say, "Thanks, Lillian." You're welcome, Andy. I'll bring this juice tomorrow also." She says as she picks up my empty glass.
"No way, one is enough for my whole lifetime," I shout behind her and she laughs as she exits my office.
Huh… Finally, I could do some work now after her advice.
*****
I return home and Tessa is still angry with me. No one talks about her appointment and I feel weird. Ann should be telling me something about her appointment, anything.
I know Tessa is angry, otherwise, she would be jumping with happiness and then revealing all the things to me.
Sigh.
Ann hands her the medicines that makes me surprised. Even her medicines are being monitored. F**k, this is not a good sign.
Tessa walks back to our room and I follow her behind silently.
Once she is inside, she rushes toward the washroom and starts throwing up.
Oh, Lord.
I enter the washroom and she looks miserable, the same as I had seen her yesterday. Kneeling beside her, I start rubbing her back and then carefully hold her hair in a firm grip so it won't get in her way.
She tilts her head to me and mutters a small thanks but again she starts throwing up violently.
Oh My… How long she is going to throw up terribly like this.
"Are you done?" I ask when she finally stops and looks haggard. She nodded her head weakly and I immediately picked her up in my arms. I know she has lost all her strength in throwing up. I could see how weak and pale she had turned after throwing up.
After helping her in washing her mouth, I sit beside her and ask anxiously, "How are you feeling, now?"
"Hmm, better…" She replies in a weak tone.
"How was your appointment?" I ask.
"Hmm fine…" She replies plainly not giving me anything.
"And the child?" I ask curiously.
"The child is fine too… Ann has discussed all the things with the doctor. My job is to eat and rest." She replies and I frown badly.
Ann has discussed everything but she is the mother of my child and what does it mean, her job to eat and rest??
"Didn't the Doctor discuss anything with you?" I ask, getting upset.
And she replies immediately with a calm face, "NO."
What???
What Ann is doing?? Has she gone mad?
She won't let Tessa even have the right to know about her child's health?
What has got into her???
Day by Day I am getting to see a weird side of Ann that I had never imagined even existed.
Since when she has started to become so cruel and selfish???
