Chapter 126 IN MY ARMS
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I try to push her away from me, I can't stay close to her because I know I am going to lose it.
But Tessa holds my wrist and stops me, "Why you are not the man for me?"
I look at her with deep emotions, Tessa, go away, you want a caring man and I am not that man, I am interested in your body, not your heart, and Ann will take away your child why don't you understand, idiot??
Stop provoking me.
The time stops between us, I don't intend to reply to her but she keeps looking at me stubbornly and then suddenly she throws herself on me taking me off guard, she starts kissing me and I look at her stunned but as her lips touch mine I seem to lose my senses as I hold her waist and pull her on my lap.
BOOM
She kisses me passionately and I kiss her back with the same passion while my hand starts to wander on her body, F**k, this dress gives me easy access to her body and I wonder if she has worn this dress deliberately to seduce me.
My erection rubbing over her dress and my hands squeezing her bottom dying to implore her, I pull away panting heavily, her arms wrap around my neck as I stare into her clean innocent eyes, F**k, Tessa you are too young and innocent.
My fantasies are different from yours, why can't you see?
I touch my forehead and then close my eyes trying to calm my rushing adrenaline, "I can't" I open my eyes and tell her firmly. A deep frown appeared on her forehead as I hold her up and put her back on her feet.
The more she will stay close the closer I am to f**k her.
She looks down, not meeting my gaze looking confused or humiliated, and then she makes her way to the door with intention of leaving but I hold her wrist to stop her, "Tessy, Say something to me."
"There is nothing I want to say to you." She snaps, anger visible in her tone, she then pulls her hand out of my grip rudely, then bends down to pick up the blanket and cover herself.
She looks hurt and without saying a word she leaves the theater room. This temporary hurt is better than the pain for whole life.
I switch off the screen with the remote and then lean back, exasperated and overwhelmed by Tessa's behavior. I feel the burning sensation on my lips and subconsciously I touch them remembering Tessa's lips on me.
She fits perfectly in my arms. Sigh.
I call Miss Celine to clean the mess in the theater room and then walk back to my room. I keep looking at the ceiling there is no sleep in my eyes but restlessness, I miss Tessa's warmth, F**k, no.
Why do I keep thinking of her body?
"Ahhh…
Ahhh…
No… Don't…
No…."
I hear the faint shouts while I was desperately trying to sleep and then rush towards Tessa's room. Her door was locked, Mind-blowing.
With a strong push, I am able to break the lock of her door and then enter anxiously. I look at Tessa. She was having a nightmare as I hold her in my arms and then pat her cheeks softly to wake her up.
"Tessy… Tessy… What happened?"
She opens her eyes finally and then mutters in a low and hoarse voice, "Nightmare…"
I sigh in relief, the horror movie after effect.
"The Invisible Man?" I ask and she nods her head, I frown noticing her tears, I wipe them and then comfort her, "Don't cry, I am here."
I hug her to console her and she hugs me back gladly. After a while, she pulls away and I let her go but didn't lose my grip on her.
"Do you want to come into my room or should we stay here?" I ask her, concerned.
"We are not a couple." She reminds me and then attempts to stand from the bed, and I frown angrily. At least at this moment don't bring up what happened in the theater, Tessa.
"Hah, do you always need to be so stupid, Tessy.." I scold her while pinning her down on the bed.
"I said, I can't, that doesn't mean I don't want to…" I say through gritted teeth. Does she know how much I am suffering while refusing her? Is it easy for me to push her away when I am so desperate to have her?
"Let's keep things slow for now, ok." I tell her softly as I lean closer and peck her soft lips, "Is the burning finish now?" I ask.
"Uhmm… yes…" She stutters and looks surprised as to how I know about it.
Reading her mind, I reply with a smirk, "I too feel some burning on my lips after our kiss."
She turns red from my confession and then laying beside her I pull her into my arms, her warmth is so relaxing. Thankfully she didn't argue and neither struggle in my hold as she falls asleep calmly in my arms.
I take some time to watch her beautiful features. My hand starts to move on her bare arms and I stop as I hold her hand and kiss her knuckles, No… No… Don't do anything stupid, Andrew.
Don't force her again, she wants love not pleasure, not lust, but pure love and you have a lust for her body not for her.
I keep reminding myself and then close my eyes to sleep.
I feel twitching pain in my bottom and wake up with a boner, I growl, F**k and then look at Tessa cautiously who is sleeping soundly beside me, she is comatose.
I pull myself away from her slowly and quietly not wanting to disturb her sleep. I stand and then look at the things scattered on the ground.
Tessa's dress, a blanket, her bra, and her thong.
I bend down and fold them neatly not before I touch her lace thong and remember about our little intimacy in the theater room.
F**k, this isn't helping I need to leave this room fast. Changing my clothes hurriedly, I go down to the backyard and start running, day by day I am getting more and more exhausted with the unnecessary thoughts and also my body heat, it's rising too much.
While running I notice a figure walking towards me, she looks sleepy and lost, I rush to her and then frown unhappily as she is wearing a thin dress that could easily make her catch a cold, "Tessy, what are you doing here like this, you could catch a cold."
And then hurriedly I cover her with my jacket.
"I didn't find you in the room," She complains.
"You know, I run daily here in the morning." I remind her with curled lips and she looks flushed.
"I should probably be going." She says hurriedly in order to escape but I don't want her to leave me yet, "Tessy, sit here, I will complete my laps then we will go together." I hold her arm and she nods her head and then goes back to her usual place to sit.
I complete my laps in a good mood, a faint smile keeps appearing on my lips when I see the fear and complaining in her eyes about me leaving her behind. She is scared of me leaving her just like she was when I left her for the very first time.
I drink plenty of water to reduce my heat and then sit beside her to ask her, "You thought I left you?"
She bites her lips and I could sense her getting nervous as I assure her, "I won't leave you this time, don't worry." She nods and I add, "Also, next time wear something over your nightdress, you know it's quite distracting for me."
Yeah, if she keeps showing up in this thin dress with her ni**les visible to my view I am going to bite her ni**les hard.
I follow her to the room and she stops abruptly while pointing at the door of my room, "Your room is there."
While I reply with a chuckle, "I know."
I continue walking and then bend down to check the lock that I had broken last night, "Seems like it needs to be changed." I conclude after inspecting it and then walk inside straight to the washroom while Tessa keeps following me like a tail.
"Do you want to join?" I tease her, grinning and she immediately backs out. "No, thanks."
I close the door but didn't lock it. What if she wants to join?
Such a stupid thought yet pleasing my mind.
I get disappointed as Tessa didn't enter the washroom and when I step out of the shower she hands me my jacket back, "Your Jacket."
"Can you bring my clothes?" I ask her softly.
And she asks back, "Why?"
Feeling agitated, I order her firmly, "Tessy, bring my clothes here."
Why does she have to make me upset?
She comes back after a while and places my clothes neatly on the bed but I don't see my brief anywhere. I look at her with a raised brow and an unspoken question hanging in the air.
She looks at me with a blank face and shaking my head, I point towards my bottom, she gets my point and widens her eyes as she starts to shake her head, but my glare was enough for her to retreat her steps and go back to my room.
Seriously, I just fold your clothes and you can't even bring me my briefs. What about last night when you were desperate to take them off?
I don't understand her sudden shyness from me.
My phone rings, it's Ann. I pick up the call immediately as Ann's pleasing voice makes my mood better.
"Andrew, dear, how are you?"
"I am fine, Ann. How are you doing?"
"I am completely fine, it will take me a few more days to come back, how's Tessa?" She asked, curious to know if I had slept with her again or not.
Should I tell her that I refused her last night? Or should I tell her that I am planning to give her a chance as my wife, not as a surrogate for my baby?
What should I tell her?
