Chapter 187
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It's been exactly 2 weeks 3 days and 5 hours since Teddy and I had sex. I thought it was special, well at least for me. I was a virgin and I always wanted to lose it to the right guy, but after making one too many mistakes I realized that there is no such thing as a right guy. So I gave up on that. When I first moved here about a year ago I never expected what happened with Teddy to happen, I mean we're literally from two different worlds. He's up there on Mercury with the rest of the popular people and I'm all the way on Jupiter.
"Want some dinner honey?" my mom walks into my room as I sit on the floor questioning every decision I've ever made
"In a bit, thanks"
"Everything alright Adam?" I don't reply because I'd just lie and say yes and I don't want to lie. She walks in and shuts the door "what's wrong?"
I sigh "if I tell you you have to promise not make a big deal out of it" "I won't" she sits on the floor next to me
"There's a guy" I start of and she gives me her attention "his name is Teddy and 2 weeks ago I kind of
lost my virginity to him" Her eyes grow "before you say anything mom I'm almost 18 and yes we used protection"
"Do you like this boy?"
"So much mom. I mean I think about him all the time. I thought he liked me too that's why I did it with him but he hasn't spoken to me since it happened"
"I'm sorry honey"
"I should've known this would happen he isn't even out. He's been gay for two years and he's still in the closet"
"Well Adam it happened and all I can tell you is to let him go, you're better than that boy and you'll find someone even more special"
"You're supposed to say that you're my mother"
She laughs "true but I also mean it" she stands from the floor "now get up, let this boy go, and come have some dinner with people who actually care and love you" she grabs my hand and we leave my room.
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2 days later...
I have to forget about Teddy but is it sad that I can't? He has this hold on me that whenever I'm a step closer to forgetting about him he'd just smile at me and I'd be 3 steps back to where I started. It doesn't help that he sits right in front of me in chemistry, I pretend he's not there but that's impossible to do since he is sitting right there.
After school I rush to my car and leave, I never stay here more than I have to I avoid all corners to not run into him. When I get home I am attacked by my little sisters Rena and Tina "Adam!" they run to me and attack me with hugs causing me to smile. They're only 4 but they look so much older
"Hey guys" I take off my book bag and carry them to the kitchen where my mom was cooking "hi ma" I walk in kissing her on the cheek and putting the twins down
"How was your day?" she asks as she chops carrots
"Uneventful" I reply stealing a piece of carrot and throwing it in my mouth.
The twins run around making a lot of noise "would you take them to the park I can't focus with all this noise?" she asks
"Sure" I reply. "Rena and Tina!" I call them and they rush over "go put on some shoes and a sweater we're going to the park" they jump up and down in excitement and run away. "I'm gonna go put their seats in my car tell them to come outside when they're done"
"Alright. I'll text you when dinner is ready so you guys can head back" I walk away.
After setting their seats up in the back seat of my car they climb in and we were off to the park "ladies what are the rules when we're at the park?" I ask
"Don't take things from strangers" Rena says "Don't be mean to the other kids" Tina adds
"And always stay where you can see us" Rena ends
"Good girls" I smile. We get to the park and I park my car, before I knew it they were off to the swings leaving me behind. I sit on the bench as I watch the twins laugh and pump their legs to go higher on the swings. Pulling out my phone I scroll trying to find something to look at
but there's nothing, so I just plug in my headphones and play some music. As I keep and eye on the twins and listen to my music I feel someone sit next to me on the bench. Slowly I turn to take a quick look at the person and before I made it to their face I knew who it was.
Teddy sitting right next to me, I can't let him see me like this I can't be weak around him. He makes me weak and I hate it. "What are you doing here?" I ask not bothering to turn to him
"I needed to talk to you" his voice so close sends shivers down my spine
I smile "here to tell me that we can't talk anymore?" I ask sarcastically he opens his mouth to speak and I cut him off "you don't have to, the last two weeks are all the answers I need"
He sits quietly and I still don't look at him "I'm an ass" "He admits"
