Chapter 45
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"But I get what you mean." Ryder continues to gawk at the shirtless boy standing in front of him, "your art it's amazing," his eyes finally meet Shia again
"You think so?" Shia is very hesitant about sharing his art, but Ryder wasn't just anyone and he's prepared for the boy to know that. "I'm not really good at sharing this side of myself with people but I'm really glad I am, and I'm glad it's you."
"Are you sure you wouldn't want it to be anyone else?" Ryder couldn't help feeling insecure especially about what was happening. Shia Yorkton could probably get any guy, Ryder's never thought he was lucky, so why the hell would Shia even want him?
"It couldn't have been anyone else,"
"Why not?" Ryder questions curious by Shia's reply
Shia doesn't answer instead he moves closer until he's pressing against Ryder, with his hands trailing around Ryder's waist, Shia leans in his ear planting a gentle kiss then saying "because no one compares to you, Ryder Andrews."
Left speechless by such a response Ryder just takes Shia's lips on his and they share another mind- bending kiss, one that pulls them from the door trailing their way all the way to Ryder's bed.
Every miscalculated step leads the boys to something they didn't expect to be happening, Ryder didn't think Shia would be between his legs right now showering his neck with kisses. Shia wanted Ryder he knew that much, but thinking Ryder would ever want him back felt like a long shot. He's never bothered trying for anything, but Ryder wasn't anything, and Shia knew no matter what it took, this would all be worth it.
But was it too much too soon? Shia also knows what it's like getting too much of something you want, he doesn't want to take anything from Ryder, not yet at least. If they continued like this, with Ryder's soft moans against his lips making his pants tighter and tighter, Shia couldn't see clearly he was so close to losing himself in Ryder. It was definitely too soon. Abruptly pulling away Shia moves from between the boy's legs leaving Ryder confused, "are you ok?" He asks sitting up too. Shia nods moving to the other side of the bed to face away from Ryder, "you're just so cute" he turns back to Ryder smiling, "I didn't think I could stop myself."
"Why do you want to stop?"
"I don't want to stop" Shia answers honestly, "I just want you too much... but I also want more than just this from you." He turns back facing away from Ryder again hoping that'll calm all the blood in his body from rushing to the wrong place.
"You can have whatever you want Shia," Ryder shyly says quietly, he can't see how big of a grin saying that puts on Shia's face.
Clearing his throat to not seem too affected by Ryder's words, Shia stands leaving Ryder on the bed as he walks towards his shirt picking it up from the floor. After putting it back on Shia walks to the bed sitting in front of Ryder.
Studying the boy's face Shia tries his best to not kiss him again, "so when did you know?" He asks instead "how you felt about me"
"Oh Um" Ryder smiles trying to recall. The minute he knew the answer he meets Shia's eyes, "couple weeks ago when you went to see Evan with me"
"That's it?" Shia asks chuckling, "can we make it another time?" Shaking his head Ryder denies, "no I choose that one"
"Why?"
"Because besides my roommates you're the only other person that knows about my brother, no one in my life stays because of Evan. I was scared to tell you and lose you too, but you offered to go see him with me. After he and I fought you held my hand during the drive back and said that at least I tried, that even though it's hard, I've never given up on him and that's all that mattered. I've felt something many times before but that was when I was sure."
"Of what?"
"I was sure that it was you, you were the one"
"Me?" Shia asks pointing to himself, "are you sure about that?"
Nodding as he crawls closer to the boy Ryder stops when his face is mere inches from Shia's, "I've never been more sure" his gaze falls to Shia's lips
And Shia sighs "fuck," knowing he can't stop Ryder or himself from Ryder kissing him again.
Pulling on Shia's bottom lip Ryder starts to mount him as their kiss gets intense, feeling Shia's fingers make their way up his shirt Ryder moans dropping himself onto Shia completely. With everything pressed up against each other, Ryder feels something causing him to pull his lips away, with his mouth still open Shia opens his eyes to find Ryder staring with a grin, "I'm not helping am I?"
Shia shakes his head "no you're not," he flips over being on top now pinning Ryder against the sheets, "but since I'm the one there's no point in waiting is there?"
Ryder chuckles "I'm gonna regret telling you that"
"You might," Shia smiles coming down to keep kissing the boy.
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"I thought we talked about you drawing me while I'm sleeping," Ryder says with his eyes closed hearing the sound of Shia's pencil as he drew next to him.
"I don't know what you're talking about," Shia quietly shuts his sketchbook putting it away, moving close he pulls Ryder to him planting kisses on his face. "I can't help it you just look so fucking cute when you sleep"
Finally opening his eyes with a smile Ryder moves his head until his lips can reach Shia's, after sharing a kiss he pulls away. "Good morning"
"Hi" Shia responds as his fingers caresses the boy's cheek, "sleep well?" Ryder nods, "you?"
"It's physically impossible for me to sleep knowing you're next to me with no pants on" Shia answers
making Ryder laugh, "but I try."
