Chapter 60
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"Uhmm, I guess you heard that." I swallowed. I was never good at talking about my feelings and now I hear ready to confess my love for a man who has been ignoring me for weeks.
Breathe
I took two deep breaths still looking at him. I laughed a little and shake my head. "I'm terrible at these things." I looked at his face waiting to see his usually goofy smile but it wasn't there, I guess he wasn't let me off easy. I didn't deserve to be let off easy.
I took more deep breaths and then explained, "I wasn't searching through your things. I woke up and you were sleeping, I was hungry so I went to the kitchen and eat a few pieces of garlic bread and I noticed the view and I went to look. When I was heading back to the kitchen I noticed that your documents were all over the place, it looked messy and so I started cleaning it up. I was never looking to find the files for the Samuels case. I didn't see the files for the Samuels case what I saw the McNeil case and I was fascinated by his story and so I started reading and I couldn't stop. That's what you saw."
I pause and took a deep breath then continued, "I didn't come to your apartment that night to look for information on the case, I'm not that type of person and I can't believe you actually thought I would do that." I paused for a second, "but then, I didn't give you a reason to not to think that. I always put my work first, not feelings and of course you'd think that I would do anything to win a case. After all, my job came first, doesn't it?
I sigh and ran my hands through my hair then continued my ranting, "I never placed my emotions before my job, until I met you. Well, until I saw you again. I never expect any of this. I didn't think I was capable of having feelings for anyone, especially someone like you." I laughed, "You're not my type. I like smart guys, not that you're not smart just not as smart as the other guys I dated. But that's not the point. The point is that I didn't fall in love with any of those smart men I dated. I fell for you, the humorous dude who I made out with the last day of school. By the way, you're the first person I made out with."
I laugh at how unorganized my words were. "Seth, I love you." I looked in his eyes with a smile on my face and tears in my eyes "I love you so much. I was going to tell you back. When you woke up, I was going to tell you that I loved you too. The reason I didn't respond because I was in shock and I needed time to process how I felt about you but now I can't take wait a next minute without telling you how much I love you and how sorry I am." A tear slipped from my eyes. "I'm not used to you being silent. Can you just say something?"
"I was waiting for you to finish your ranting," he spoke for the first time.
I looked at him, my heart in my hands, waiting for him to either heal or break my heart.
"On the day of graduation, I looked for you but Michelle told me you were gone as soon as the program ended. I was disappointed. I really liked you and I didn't get to tell you that I was pining over all through high school." I laughed. "I used to watch you all the time and when you spin that bottle that night I was praying that it landed on me and it did. I just wasn't brave enough to ask you out after we made out. Anyways I saw a picture on Brandon's facebook with you and Iris. There was a free spot for DA and so I applied and ran the campaign and I won. I moved here because of you."
His words couldn't be any more shocking than they already were. Did he really move to New York because of a picture he was of me and Iris?
"I didn't last long for me to see you. When I saw you at the bar not only were you driving men away from you, you made it clear you weren't interested in a relationship and I was determined to change that. I didn't come all the way here for you to turn me down. But you did turn me down many times, so many times that I can't even count but all those times don't matter, do you know why?" he asked rhetorically. "Because no matter how many times you turned me down you always came running back. And you know what even more bizarre? I always met you half way."
He smiled at me for the first time in weeks, "You drive me crazy. I know you weren't searching through my things to get evidence on the case. I know you're not that type of person. I was angry. I was angry because when I woke up the girl I just confessed my feelings to wasn't beside me when I woke up. I was angry because you didn't give me a response. I was angry because I was afraid that you didn't love me back. I was angry because I thought that I had lost you."
He took two steps leaving no space between us. Without breaking eye contact he took my hands in his. He lifted my left hand to his chest right above his heart. "You feel that right there. It's been breaking for weeks but hearing you tell me how much you love me has healed my broken heart. Now it's time for me to heal yours."
