Chapter 174: Don't want think about him
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"No, no, no!" I giggled like a teen school girl when luis sauntered toward me with a shot in his hands. The plan was apparently to put the shot between my breasts, but I wasn't letting him anywhere near my girls.
"Awe, come on, lynn! It's not like I haven't seen your breasts before!" Luis whined.
My sister Careen belted out her laugh as I pinned her with my glare. This was all her fault! Actually, this was Conner's fault! It was his idea to have the four of us go out drinking after having Lobster to catch up. I figured we'd visit a nice wine bar by the bay, sipping all kinds of wine and acting like the prominent family that we were. Instead, we're sitting in a dingy bar ordering Tequilas, Sex on the Beach shots, and Blowjobs. It was super classy.
"I came out for a few drinks, not to get hammered and let my gay best friend take shots from my tits!"
Luis pointed at me.
"Ooo, she said tits!! Lynn's getting tipsy and her dirty mouth is showing!"
I covered my mouth and glared at luis. Conner and Careen were clearly enjoying themselves as they laughed at us. It was actually really nice to see this side of my siblings. I honestly knew nothing about them, but I hoped to change that. They were cool as hell and not at all the snobby rich kids I thought they'd be.
"Okay, okay! No tit shots, but we are going to take these." Conner held up his shot before we all held ours up. "Cheers to the best damn weekend I've had in a long time. Welcome home, lynn!"
My cheeks blushed as we clicked our shots together and then threw them back. The liquor burned my throat before I coughed and slammed my shot down on the table.
"Okay, enough of these. I need an actual drink!"
"Did you guys say drinks?" Micky's voice caught me by surprise as I turned around and saw him walking toward us with a large pitcher of beer and a stack of cups in his hands. He set them down and grabbed Careen around the waist, pulling her flush to his chest. "Hey, beautiful."
I swooned. Micky had been in my life for as long as I could remember and it was nice to finally see him happy. Knowing that he's with my sister who's this incredible woman, makes it even sweeter.
"We've all had like three shots a piece, Mick, you're behind," Conner said as he slid a shot in Micky's direction.
He gave Conner the stink eye, but took the shot like a champ. We all cheered him on and then poured some beers, chatting and laughing it up. It felt amazing to let loose like this after everything that had happened up to this point. I just wished Drake was here to unwind too. He was beyond stressed out and I still felt guilty for leaving him behind.
Luis nudged my shoulder. "Missing the D-man, lynn?"
I chuckled at luis's little nickname for Drake. It was really awesome how these two have bonded. I'd be torn in two if they hadn't and I was forced to choose between them. I didn't think I could ever do it. They both meant the world to me.
"More than I probably should," I admitted. "I still feel bad for leaving him behind."
He wrapped his arm around my shoulder. "He's a good guy, lynn, you have nothing to worry about."
My cheeks blushed at his words. Sweet luis thought I was nervous to leave him behind, but that wasn't the case at all. The amount of trust I've gained over the last few weeks have been life-changing. Did I still worry that a woman might throw themselves at Drake? Absolutely. But I trusted him now. There wasn't a single doubt in my mind over Drake's loyalty to me. He had asked me to marry him. In my eyes, that's the biggest declaration of loyalty someone can give another person.
Unless it was Jason, but I promised myself I wouldn't think about him anymore.
It was just hard being back in Seattle where it all began. I was once married to a monster who would probably never leave my memories, but I was marrying a man who could help me bury them.
"Let's go for a walk, babe. I need some fresh air," luis said as he pulled me from my bar stool.
"We'll see you guys later at Mama Bell's party. Don't drink and drive!" I told my siblings and Micky with a wink.
They laughed and waved us off. Luis pulled me from the bar into the crisp night air. I always loved Seattle for this exact reason. Even though we were in the city, you could inhale the fresh mountain air. I missed it dearly, but my home was in Florida now; which had its own perks.
"I think I'm going to write a book," luis blurted out.
I cleared my throat and kept my eyes out toward the ocean. That was the most random thing I'd ever heard from luis and I honestly wasn't sure how to respond.
"A book... About what?" I was afraid to ask.
He snickered. "Don't sound too excited for me, lynn. It's going to be a book about life advice and how to stop being an asshole to yourself. I'm going to make it like a journal. I tell you a piece of advice with my clever musings, and then the reader will have a space to write about that piece of advice."
I stopped and grabbed his arm as a grin stretched my lips. "I actually don't hate that idea at all."
"See? You're too quick to judge. What did you think I was going to write a book about? Gay porn? Pshh, you can find that online for free."
I laughed. "I love you, luis. So... what's your book going to be called?"
"I'm not sure yet but 'don't be an asshole' sounds fitting. I haven't gotten that far yet."
