Chapter 71: Love you as you are
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"This became my new normal. Then one night one girl introduced me to Kristoph. He was working at a small adult film project there in the city and I guess he liked my style. I never made the girls feel uncomfortable and I always stayed to myself",
"I worked as a janitor for a long time and then eventually got to help with the filming and sets. Then when I turned 18, Kristoph introduced me with an audition and I took it because the money was good. And before I knew it, I was traveling all over the states and eventually in Europe doing these films. My first year filming was rough. I felt invincible and I slept my way through the women like they were disposable. I never connected with any of them and I knew they only wanted my body. I was fine with that though.
"I went years without having sex normally and when I tried again, there was nothing there", He finally stopped talking and looked at me. I honestly had no word to say. He literally just laid out his entire baggage for me and I was speechless. I think what broke my heart mostly was knowing that this 15 year old boy ran from his home that was clearly loveless and lived a life just as loveless.
"That is so sad, were you afraid that you wouldn't find anyone to love you as you are", It wasn't a question.
He looked at me through hooded eyes before he nodded his head.
"As I said Lynn, meeting you has been the best thing to ever happen to me. I think I knew it from the first moment l laid my eyes on you in that airport. You scared the hell out of me and you definitely scare the hell out of me now",
I giggled unable to help myself as I remembered that fateful day. I hated to want him and I wanted to hate him.
"How do I scare the hell out of you now?", I swallowed back my giggles, putting on my serious face again.
He studied me for a long moment before saying. "Because you can destroy me",
I gulped knowing what he meant. I'm the first woman he has ever had feelings for and if I kick him to the curb, he would be destroyed. I really do hold all the cards in my hands and here I thought he was the one who could destroy me.
"What happens now?", I whispered.
Struggling, he studied my face.
"That's up to you, Lynn. I already know what I want",
My heart thundered in my chest. He already knew what he wanted and I have got a pretty good idea that it's me. The ball was in my court now.
"You should know that I was once married", I blurted out, needing him to know the truth now. He was so open with me and now it was my turn.
He chuckled nervously, scratching the back of his neck. "I know.........",
"You know?", How the hell does he know?! Did he do some kind of background check on me or something.
"I may have or may not have eavesdropped on your conversation with my sister",
Oh! Yeah I almost forgot about that.
"Well then, you already know everything I was about to tell you",
He reached over and grabbed my hand Iacing our fingers together. My eyes locked on our fingers as my heart raced faster.
"Lynn, I want you to know that I will never do those things to you. I know people promise these kind of things all the time but I actually mean it. I will never raise a hand on you as I know what that feels like. And i will never cheat on you, knowing I would lose you forever. There is no other woman in the world for me, Lynn. You're it",
Jesus Christ I was melting over here and any anger I once felt towards him was completely gone.
I pushed up from my spot, rounded the table and crawled into his lap. My legs were straddling his hips as I stared down at his perfect face. This man has been through so much and he just poured everything out for me to hear. We still had a lot to talk about and figure out but I was ready to do that right now. I want him and no one else.
"I'm in love with you too, Drake", i whispered..
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DRAKE'S POV.
It felt strange letting out everything to lynn. I had never done something like that in my life, but it felt freeing to let someone in. She seemed to accept my past instead of shunning me for it. It was the complete opposite of what I thought she would do. I just wish, l had let her in sooner.
And she told me she was in love with me too. I had never been excited about something in my whole life. We had moved to the couch in the living room, nearly emptying the bottle of wine as we sat and talked. This wasn't something I normally did with women and I was really enjoying it.
I was painfully attracted to Lynn but this was nice too.
She was grinning from ear to ear after the joke I had made before she leaned forward and filled up her glass with wine.
"More?", She asked me, holding up the bottle
"Yeah sure", I nodded.
